Three

Previously On Jayoncé Journey Of Love. Bey, Jay, and Jayden got into a car accident. Bey and Jayden had minor injuries. They found out that Bey had a miscarriage. They took it hard. They went on a date, and fell deeper in love. That night Bey was crying over her miscarriage. 





(Jay) 
It was about 3 in morning. I had to piss, so I went to the bathroom. Took a piss and washed my hands. When I went back to the bed I realized that Bey wasn't there. So I figured that she was in Jayden's room. I went to into Jayden's room and there was no sign of her. I covered him up and went to look for her. As I walked down the hallway I heard sniffling. It was coming from the living room. I walked faster. There Bey was, on the couch, knees touching her chest, with her arms wrapped around her legs. Eyes fulls of tears. I was confused. I didn't know why she was crying. She didn't see me or hear me. I walked over to the couch. She kept crying. I just sat next her and put my arms around her, as she cried into my chest. I wanted to know what was going on and why she was crying so hard. Seeing her in this state was almost heart breaking for me. I hate seeing her cry. Everything was all good just hours away. I continued to hold her. I held her tight. She finally stopped crying five minutes later.


Jay: Babe, whats wrong? Why are you crying?
Bey: *silent*
Jay: Baby, tell me whats wrong. 
Bey: ...The miscarriage. 
Jay: Babe,...I..

Bey: I know. Im sorry.

Jay: Hey! You don't need to be sorry. 

Bey: *sniff* I just don't wanna be sad anymore. It hurts so much.

Jay: *kisses her forehead* I know. But what happen, what made cry like this? 

Bey: *wipes nose* The dream that I had. Well, nightmare. 

Jay: You wanna tell me about it? 

Bey: The night of the car accident. We didn't argue though. You just weren't paying attention. The SVU came outta no where and hit us. I flew outta the windsheild, and the car ran over my stomach. The baby appeared. We stared at each other for a while...*chokes up* and..

Jay: *rubs her back* Its okay babe. Take your time. 

Bey: And she..she um..She was like 2 years old. Chubby cheeks. your big head, your lips, everything else was me. She was so cute and precious...*wipes tears* She waved and smiled at me. Then she said "Hi mommy".....I just stared at her. Then she slowly started floating up into the sky. 

Jay: *wipes tears* Thats tough, babe. Im sorry you had to-

Bey: *stands up* This all your fault!!!

Jay: *stands up* Huh??

Bey: *hits him repeatedly* *cries* This is all your fault!! You did this!! I hate you!!! I hate you!! I hate you, Jay!! 

Jay: *bear hugs Bey* I know. Im sorry!! 

Bey: *hugs him tight*. *cries* I just want my baby baaaaack. 

Jay: Im sorry baby. I really am. 

Bey: *sniff* Whyyyyyyy?? *sniff*

Jay: I don't know. Only God knows. He does things for-

Bey: But why did he have to take our baby away??

Jay: *hugs her tight* I don't know, babe. Everything that happens is just another lesson for us to learn from. I know it hurts you. It hurts me too. I'm always here for you. No matter what. 
Bey: I know. I just want the pain to go away. 
Jay: Its going to take some time for us to get over this. But as long as we keep the love between us. We'll be okay. 
Bey: But what if I can't have any more children-
Jay: Babe, stop saying that. I'm still going marry you and be with you no matter what. *grabs her face and kisses her* 
Bey: Do you really mean that or are you saying that just to make me feel better?
Jay: Im saying it because its true. Is it making you feel better?
Bey: A little bit. *yawns* 
Jay: You wanna go lay down now?
Bey: *wipes eyes* Yeaah. I want Jayden to sleep in the bed with us. 
Jay: Aight. Come on. 


*They go get Jayden. Bey lays Jayden right up under her and Jay holds Bey from behind.*


Jay: Baby?
Bey: Hmm?
Jay: You gone be aight while I'm at work later on?
Bey: Yeahh. Im going to the studio. 
Jay: Who's watching Jayden? 
Bey: I'm bring him with me. Angie and Ty will be there with me. 
Jay: Okay. Good night. I love you. 
Bey: I love you too. 


(Next Day. 9am)


Jay: *taps Bey* Babe. 
Bey: *sleeping*
Jay: *kisses her lips*
Bey: *opens one eye* Hmm.
Jay: I'm leaving. I just wanted to tell to you.
Bey: Okay. Have a good day, babe. 
Jay: I will.. You too. *kisses her cheek* Love you. 
Bey: Love you too baby. 
Jay: *leaves* 




(11 am)
Bey: You wanna go to work with you mommy? *smiles* 
Jayden: Hnchsajdeysdb. *smiles* Mama. 
Bey: *kisses him* You're so cute. 
Jayden: Jdncssdusn.
Bey: Lets go eat something. *picks him up and goes to the kitchen* *puts him in his high chair* You wanna watch Elmo while mommy makes you some eggs?
Jayden: Uhhh hunnnnn. *smiles* 
Bey: *turns kitchen Tv on* Here you go baby boy. *winks at him* 
Jayden: *smiles big showing his four teeth* 
Bey: *giggles* Those four little teeth. *gets eggs*
Jayden: *laughs at Elmo* 
Bey: Is it that funny babe?
Jayden: *ignores Bey and keeps watching TV*
Bey: *shakes head* Just like ya daddy. *turns stove on* *cracks eggs* 
Jayden: *bangs on high chair table*
Bey: Little boy. If you don't be patient! Acting like your daddy everyday. You gotta cut that out. 
Jayden: *whines* 
Bey: Jayden! Stop acting. *starts making the eggs* You have to wait. 
Jayden: *laughs at Elmo* 
Bey: *shakes head* Spoiled. *cooks eggs* *cuts a few strawberries* Here. Greedy. *puts bowl on his high chair*
Jayden: *starts grubbing* 
Bey: Oh my Lord! *giggles* Boy, slow down. Goodness. Now you're acting like me. 
Jayden: *slows down* *watches TV while he eats* 


(Bey) 
I was just as hungry as Jayden was, so I made a bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios. I sat on the counter and ate. Watching him. This precious little gift given to me by God. I don't know where I'd be without him. He brings me the most joy. That smile, showing his four little teeth. Brightens my day no matter what. He means the world to me. I think part of the reason why I spoil him is because of the abortion. I would have two children, and one the way. Crazy now that I think about it. Would we be able to handle all of this? What would our lives be like if I would have never gotten that abortion? I would have never gotten with Justin. Jay would have never gotten arrested. Would my first unborn child be a girl or a boy? I'll never know now. The 2nd unborn child, was it a boy or girl? Never know  that either. Jay was right. Everything happens for a reason. But what were the reasons? Why did I really get an abortion? Why did I get pregnant and have a miscarriage? I guess I'll understand why later on in life. As of right? Jayden Corey Carter. The love of my life. The reason why I wake up every morning. His first birthday is just around the corner...He interrupted my thoughts.


Bey: You ready to get out?
Jayden: Uhhh huuhhnn. 
Bey: *gets off counter* *walks towards him* Can you say " Yeeesss"
Jayden: Weeessss. *smiles* 
Bey: *giggles* Yu-yu-yesssssss
Jayden: Wu-wu-weessss. 
Bey: *giggles* Close enough. *takes him out* You wanna take a bath?
Jayden: *gets excited* 
Bey: *walks towards his bedroom* You love the water like mommy?
Jayden: wu-wu-weeessss!
Bey: *laughs* Just say "yes" baby. 
Jayden: Wes. Weeeesss Wessssss. 
Bey: Mhmm baby. Work your vocal cords. *smiles* 
Jayden: *confused* Hmm?
Bey: Nothing baby. *walks in Jayden's bathroom* *puts him down* *runs water* 




(Bey And Jayden getting out of the car. At the studio) 


Bey: *getting Jayden out of his car seat* Okay, you have to walk because I can't carry you and our bags. 
Jayden: *looks up at her all sad*
Bey: Not gonna work this time, baby. *closes door*
Jayden: *pulls on Bey's pants* Up. 
Bey: *grabs his hand* Uhh uhn. Nope. Come on. *walks to the curb*
Jayden: Wesss. Up!
Bey: Jayden, mommy said no. 
Jayden: *whines*
Bey: Uggghh. Okay. *bends down and picks him up* This spoiling thing is getting outta hand. 




*Bey walks in the building and into her studio. Ty and Angie are already in there with the engineer. *

Ty: Took you long enough. 
Angie: For real. We've been here for 30 minutes. 
Bey: Well hello to y'all too..But I have a child. Who spilled juice in my car and I had to pull over and clean up the mess. 
Angie: What happen to making him walk? His daddy is gone kill you, if you keep holding him.
Ty: He is too damn big for you to be carrying all day everyday. 
Bey: *drops bags*  HIS DADDY, isn't gonna do anything. 
Ty: Right. Mhmm. 
Jayden: *sticks his tongue out at Ty*
Ty: Ooooo!! You are so BAD!! You saw that Bey?
Bey: No. See what?
Angie: He stuck his tongue out at Ty. 
Bey: *looks at Jayden* No he didn't. 
Ty: Oh but yes his lil bad ass did. 
Bey: Don't curse around him. He hears enough from his daddy. He's not bad. 
Jayden: Ass?
Angie: *crack up* 
Bey: Jayden, DON'T say that. Thanks Ty. 
Ty: Told you he was bad. 
Jayden: Ass, ass, ass, ass-
Bey: STOP! 
Jayden: Ass, ass-
Bey: *pops Jayden in the mouth* I said stop. 
Ty: *shocked*
Angie: *shocked* 
Jayden: *cries* 
Bey: I told you to stop. Next time mommy says "stop" then you stop. 
Jayden: *cries* *throws his head back* 
Bey: If daddy hears saying that word, he's gonna hit you harder. Cut it out. 
Jayden: *sniffs*
Ty: Can you believe it, Angie? Beyonce just hit Jayden.
Angie: Never thought I'd see the day. 
Bey: I only popped him in the mouth. 
Ty: Same thing. 
Bey: Anyway, I came to WORK. You ready Mark?
Mark(Engineer): Yeahh, producers sent over tones of tracks. 
Bey: Awesome. Can of y'all hold him?
Ty: I'm not holding his bad ASS!
Jayden: *looks at Bey* 
Ty: Mhmm. Say it. I dare you.
Angie: *laughs* Why are you arguing with a 1 year old?
Bey: Because he's retarded. Here Angie, take him please. He doesn't cry with you. 
Ty: Thats because she has those big tiddays. *laughs* 
Angie: *takes Jayden* Ty, shut up.
Bey: Please. *sits next to Mark* 
Ty: *flinches at Jayden* 
Jayden: *sticks tongue out* 
Angie: I worry about you, Ty. 
Mark: *plays Smash Into You instrumental* 
Bey: *listens* I love it. Keep that one. 
Mark: *plays another track*
Bey: Uhh uhn. Skip. 
Mark: *plays Disappear instrumental track* 
Bey: *listens* I love this. *grabs notepad from bag* *walks in booth* Play that one again. 
Mark: *plays Disappear* 
Bey: *sings disappear lyrics* 


*Ty and Angie were paying close attention* 


Bey: That needs a little editing.
Mark: Woah. You don't need ANY editing AT ALL. That was GREAT. 
Bey: *blushes* Thank You. *sits* Can you save that please?
Mark: Yeah, *saves it* 
Bey: *plays the next track* *Listens* Too much going on* Next. *plays Halo* *gets lost in the track* This is amazing. Mixture of hip hip and R&B. I loooooove the drums. *plays it again* 
Bey: *plays Singles Ladies* Heeeeey *claps her hands* 

Ty: Heeeey! *claps hands*

Angie: Keep this one Bey. *claps hands*

Jayden: *dances in Angie's lap* 

Angie: *laughs* Bey, look at your child. 

Bey: *turns around* *laughs* You like this song, baby?

Jayden: *dances* Wessss!! *claps his hands off beat* 

Ty: Lord! He dances like his daddy. *laughs* 

Bey: Leave him alone. *laughs* 

Angie: This song makes you feel like you're in church. *stomps foot and claps* 

Bey: Its does huh? *smiles* Keep this one too. 

*Bey's phone rings*

Ty: Your phone is ringing is Bey?

Bey: See who is it please? 

Ty: *looks at Bey's phone* Its ya baby's daddy.

Bey: Toss it to me.

Ty: *toss phone to her* 

Bey: *pauses track* Hello. 

Jay: Wassup baby. What are you doing?

Bey: In the studio. What about you?

Jay: Just got out of a meeting. I have another one in like 15 minutes. I just wanted to hear your angelic voice. Sooths me.

Bey: *smiles big* *blushes* *giggles*

Jay: *chuckles* Yeaah. I still got it. 

Bey: Shut up. *giggles* Hold on. I'll be right back you guys. *leaves*

Jay: Hows my lil man doing? 

Bey: He's fine. Besides him saying "ass".

Jay: He didn't say that. For real?

Bey: For real. I told him not say it. Then he kept saying. With a smile on his face. Then I popped him in the mouth.

Jay: Whaaaaaat? You popped em?

Bey: Shut up. You sound like Ty and Angie. 

Jay: Im just saying. I never thought you'd hit him. You spoil him so much.

Bey: I made him walk for like 10 seconds.

Jay: Doesn't count.

Bey: *laughs* Why doesn't it count?

Jay: 10 seconds? Not long enough. 

Bey: He started whining, so I just picked him up.

Jay: Bey, you really gotta stop that.

Bey: What happen to "my kid will get whatever he or she wants"?

Jay: I meant material things, babe. 

Bey: I know. I just don't want him to cry. 

Jay: Well he's gonna be crying a lot more from now.

Bey: No he isn't-

Jay: Aye babe. I gotta get to this meeting. Can you and Jayden meet at the pizza palace at 5:00?

Bey: Uhhh. Yeaah.

Jay: You sure?

Bey: Yeah I'm sure. I just didn't expect you to say Jayden.

Jay: Well he loves pizza so. 

Bey: Yeah..well I'll let you get back to work..

Jay: Aight baby. I'll see y'all later. Love you. 

Bey: Love you too. *they hang up* *walks in the studio* 

Angie: Jay is the MAN. He can make you smile over the phone. After y'all hang up.

Bey: *giggles* Shut up...Jayden, you want your coloring book?

Jayden: *gets excited* Wes!! 

Bey: *grabs blanket from his bag and lays it down. Grabs crayons and coloring book. *sits him down* Color in the BOOK. Thats it. Okay?

Jayden: Ooooootay. *starts scribbling* 

*Bey gets back to the music. Writes a few songs. Mark took an hour break, he left to go wherever* 

Jayden: *sits on Bey's lap* Hungee.

Bey: You are talkative today. 

Ty: He's suppose to talk, Beyonce. Not be mute.

Angie: *laughs* 

Bey: Im saying that usually doesn't talk this much. He just makes sounds and points. But I'm glad he's using his words. *grabs lunchable from the diaper bag and opens it*

Jayden: *tries to get the candy* 

Bey: *takes candy* 

Angie: Dang. He can't have candy?

Bey: He has 4 teeth. Well two more are coming in. His dad doesn't want him to have to many sweets. *gives him the meat * Here babe. 

Jayden: *grabs it and eat*

Angie: Thats why y'all put water in his juice? 

Bey: Yeah. Too much sugar.

Ty: Eww...He doesn't like the cheese or the crackers?

Bey: Yeah. He just eats it separately. *shrugs* 

Jayden: *grabs cheese* 

Angie: Bey?

Bey: Huh? 

Angie: That song you recorded. What was it about? 

Ty: Yeah. Its was deep, yet I was so confused.

Bey: *sighs* I was hopping y'all wouldn't ask me that.

Angie: Why? 

Bey: Because its very personal. Very emotional.

Ty: We can see. We heard it in your voice.

Jayden: *grabs cracker and licks the salt off*

Angie: It seemed like you were ready to cry or something.

Bey: Can you guys keep a secret?

Ty: You know I can. Can't speak for Angie.

Angie: I can hold water. Im not Kelly boo!

Bey: Anyway...The song.....The song is about....my unborn baby.

Ty: Your unborn baby? You mean when you got the..you know-

Angie: Ty, shut up! 

Bey: When I got the what?

Ty: You gone make me say it?

Angie: You aren't suppose to say anything.

Bey: Don't tell me you guys know about my ab-

Angie: Yeah we know.

Ty: Angie told me.

Bey: Who told you Angie? No one but-

Angie: Solange was ease dropping. 

Bey: Big mouth.

Angie: You mad at me?

Bey: No, it was some time ago...Does anyone else know?

Angie: Just us.

Bey: Well,...Thats not who the song is about.

Ty: Huh? Im confused.

Bey: I have two unborn babies.

Ty: You had two abortions??

Bey: ...No. I had a miscarriage..

Angie: *gasps* Ohhh Beeeeey. Im sorry.

Bey: Don't be. *fight back tears* 

Ty: When?

Bey: The car accident. 

Angie: Ohh myy gosshhh. *tries not to cry*

Bey: Angie, don't cry. If you imma cry. 

Angie: Okay..*fans eyes*

Ty: *rubs Bey's arm* You are so strong. 

Bey: I have no choice. I look at him and he makes me forget about it. 

Ty: Because he's bad. 

Jayden: *sticks his tongue at Ty*

Ty: See. 

Bey: Jayden, thats not nice. Can you say "sorry"?
Jayden: No.

Angie: Oop.

Bey: Do want me to call daddy?

Jayden: Sowwy. Sowwy. Sowwy. 

Angie: Oh my Lord. 

Ty: Mhmm. 

Bey: Those are the magic words. Works EVERY time. 

Ty: I bet. Jay's big scary mean lookin ass. 

Angie: Hell! I'd said sorry if he was my daddy. *giggles* 

Bey: Don't talk about my baby!

Angie: *sighs* *rolls eyes* Here you go. 

Bey: Anyway! You can't tell a soul what I just told you. Not even God.

Angie: .....But God already knows

Bey: You know what the hell I mean.

Jayden: *tries to grab his zippy cup*

Bey: *gives him zippy cup* Don't tell anyone..

Angie & Ty: Okay.

Jayden: *lays head on Bey's lap and drinks juice* *rubs eyes* 

Bey: You're sleepy babe?

Jayden: *sleepy voice* No. *rubs eyes*

*Bey, Ty, and Angie talk for 10 minutes* 

Jayden: *sleeping*

Bey: Look at mommy's baby. *kisses his forehead* So peaceful. *plays in his hair* 

Ty: And when he's awake, he's a terrorist!

Bey: Stop. *giggles* *takes Jayden's shoes off* Can one y'all lay that blanket in the couch? 

Angie: *lays blanket down* 

Bey: Thank you. *lays Jayden down* 

*Bey continues to work. Listening to tracks, and writing. She and Jayden left to the studio at 5:00 and made it to the pizza parlor at 5:30.* 

Bey: Hey babe. *hugs him*

Jay: *picks Jayden up* Look at you making him walk. 

Bey: Because he's getting heavy. *giggles* *sits* 

Jay: *sits with Jayden in his lap* How did the studio go?

Bey: Good. I record that song that you read. Ty and Angie asked me what it was about. *grabs a slice of pizza*

Jay: Did he eat? And what happen?

Bey: He did, but give him a piece of pizza.

Jay: *gives Jayden a piece of pizza* Can you hold it man?

Jayden: Weeeess! *grabs pizza* *eats*

Jay: So what happen?

Bey: I told them what it was about. 

Jay: What did you say?

Bey: I just said that it was about my unborn baby. They thought it was about the first-

Jay: How-

Bey: Solange was ease dropping the day I was talking to my parents and told them. 

Jay: Ohh. 

Bey: Then I told them about the second. Angie almost cried but I told her not to.

Jay: Tough subject. How do you feel?

Bey: I felt a little better when I was watching Jayden eat this morning. Still a sore subject. Its gonna take some time though. What about you?

Jay: It hurts but you know. *eats*

Bey: Hmm. *eats* Jay?

Jay: Yeah?

Bey: You know that I really am sorry for not keeping our first child. I-

Jay: Bey, don't worry about it-

Bey: Don't do that. I hate when you act like stuff doesn't bother you...Did you really hate me?

Jay: Why do you wanna bring up the past? I thought we were passed that?

Bey: I just want to know. Did you?

Jay: I did. But you have to love someone in order to hate them. That's why I'm sitting across from you right now. 

Bey: *nods* 

Jay: Let me ask you something. 

Bey: *eats* Go ahead. 

Jay: What was the real reason why?

Bey: *looks away* *looks at Jay* Jay, I was scared. I wasn't ready. 

Jay: I wish you would've told me. We could have made a decision together. But two kids would have been crazy. 

Bey: ....Three kids.

Jay: Crazy saying that out loud huh?

Bey: Yeah, a little bit. 

Jay: Three kids. Wow. 

Bey: One day. *smiles* 

Jay: Maybe sooner than you think. *wink* 

Bey: Not if I start taking birth control again. 

Jayden: *grabs Jays pizza and eats*

Bey: *laughs* 

Jay: So you just gone take daddy's pizza? *chuckles* Greedy like yo mama.

Bey: No! He's greedy like his DADDY! *laughs* 

Jay: Yeah whatever. *chuckles* 

Jayden: *trying to grab Jay's soda* 

Bey: Give him some.

Jay: He doesn't need soda. He can have some water.

Bey: Boriiiiinnnggg! *giggles*

Jay: *gives Jayden water*

Jayden: *shakes his head no* 

Bey: See. We don't like water.

Jay: Guess he'll be thirsty then. 
Bey: Babe, just give him a little taste. 
Jay: *gives Jayden some soda* 
Jayden: *drinks a lot* 
Jay: Alright alright alright! *chuckles* Greedy and thirsty. 
Bey: Jayden, can you say "mooommyy"?
Jayden: ......MooooommmME!! *smiles*
Bey: *smiles* *claps* Yaaaayy!!
Jay: Ard. Ard. Ard.
Bey: Hating is never cute, babe. *winks* 
Jay: Can you say "daddy", lil man?
Jayden: ...No. *smiles*
Bey: *laughs* Access DENIED!
Jayden: DaaaddddDE! 
Jay: Yeaaahhh!
Bey: Aaaaah. No one curr! *laughs*

*10 minutes later* 


Jay: I really think that you should tell your parents.
Bey: And I really think that you should stop nagging me about it. Looks like it won't happen. 
Jay: Bey-


*Bey's phone rings*


Bey: *looks for phone* Hello.
Mama Tina: Beyonce why didn't you tell me that you had a miscarriage. 

To Be Continued...

What I Felt

(Jay)
These words that I just read touched me. They touched me deeply. I saw Beyonce's point of view. I don't want her to feel this way. Bey and I need to get to the days when her and I used to go out to dinner. We used to always go vacations. Though we have a son now, it limits things we can do. I think a vacation for the three of us would be nice. Of course our sex would be limited on that vacation. I'mma definitely plan that vacation. Maybe after Jayden's birthday and before the wedding. 


Bey: Jay, you don't think its too early to be going to dinner. We just got home a few hours ago. 
Jay: Maybe it is, but we completely stopped going on dates-
Bey: We were on a date the night we got into that accident. 
Jay: Jayden was with us. I want it to be just the two of us. 
Bey: And who is who going to watch him on a short notice?
Jay: Kelly, Angie, Solange or your parents. 
Bey: Jay-
Jay: Come on babe. We gotta talk about somethings. 
Bey: We can talk right in the house.
Jay: ....Are you being for real? Aight, I won't bug you. *gets up from couch looking all sad* 
Bey: Ahhh. Stop it. We can go out. 
Jay: *chuckles* Works every time. *kisses her cheek*
Bey: Mhmm. When are we going?
Jay: When you find a baby sitter.
Bey: Okay. I want him to be sleep when we leave. 
Jay: Why? 
Bey: Because he's gonna cry and all that.
Jay: Well he's asleep right now. Not gonna work. 
Bey: I know. I'm sure Kelly can watch him. 
Jay: Aight, ask her to keep him until tomorrow.

Bey: Tomorrow? Why?
Jay: Don't worry about it. Just ask her. 
Bey: Can you go get the phone please?
Jay: *goes to get the phone* *comes back* Here.
Bey: *takes phone and dails Kelly's phone number* 
Kelly: *breathing heavy* Hel..lo..
Bey: Umm. Are you busy, Kelly? *giggles* 
Kelly: ....Umm....Sort of.
Bey: *hears grunting* *laughs* Why did you even answer the answer the phone? Bye. Call me when you're back isn't being blown out. *giggles* *hangs out* 
Jay: Kelly was getting her shit beat up? *chuckles* *shakes head* 
Bey: I wouldn't have even answered the phone. 
Jay: Thats because Im tearing shit up. Putting that GOOD DICK down! 
Bey: Who said it was you?
Jay: Woman, don't get hurt!
Bey: *giggles* *looks around*  Was I suppose to be scared? 
Jay: Man! Just call Angie and see if she can keep Jayden until tomorrow morning. 
Bey: She's probably busy. But i'll call. *dials Angie's number* 
Angie: Hello. 
Bey: Hey Angie. What are you up to? 
Angie: Nothing nergro what you want me to do now?
Bey: *giggles* How'd you know I needed something?
Angie: Because that's the only time you call me. You don't really love me. Its cool though. As long as my check doesn't change. 
Bey: *laughs* You know what! I love your stupid self. But I was going to ask if you could keep Jayden until tomorrow morning. 
Angie: Tomorrow morning? Hell naw. That boy is going to cry all night long! No ma'am!
Bey: Angie, please. He isn't going to cry. 
Angie: Yes the hell he is. Just like when he was hollering when you came with us. 
Bey: Soo is that is a yes? 
Angie: No. Its a hell NO. *laughs* 
Bey: Please. 
Angie: Ohh Beyonce. Begging isn't cute! *giggles* 
Bey: *giggles* Then don't make me do it. 
Angie: Fine. I'll keep him until tomorrow morning. Now why do you want to watch him?
Bey: Because Jay and I want to go out for a few hours. 
Angie: Mhmm. Y'all wanna get it in without any distractions. Im not stupid..
Bey: *laughs* You are so wrong!
Angie: Yeah sure whatever. *giggles* What time are you guys bringing over the Carter offspring?
Bey: Let me ask Jay. *to Jay* What time are we going to take Jayden to Angie's?
Jay: Uhhhh. Like 7.
Bey: 7. Is that okay?
Angie: I suppose. See y'all later. And make sure you pack EVERYTHING!
Bey: Alright. Thank you. 
Angie: Mhm. *hangs up* 


(Angie's House)


Bey: *holding Jayden* Angie, don't forget that he's allergic to apples. 
Angie: Okay, Beyonce. I got it. 
Bey: He goes to bed at 8:00. I already fed him so you don't have to do that. He might want a little snack, like a PB&J or something. If he wants juice or milk, make sure you add a little water.
Angie: Lord have mercy. Jayden has a whole manual. *giggles* 
Bey: *giggles* Shut up. 
Angie: You look cute Bey. Where are you guys headed?
Jay: Out. If Beyonce would bring her ass on. We gone be late. 
Angie: She's always late. Haven't you realized that?
Bey: Both of you can kiss my ass. 
Jay: Oh I plan to. 
Angie: Alright alright. Give me the boy and leave before I throw up. 
Bey: *hands Jayden to Angie* You be good for mommy. Okay?
Jayden: *shakes his head no* No. 
Angie: Chh. Yes you will. 
Jay: *chuckles* Come on babe. 
Bey: Alright. Jayden, give mommy kisses. 
Jayden: *kisses Bey* 
Bey: Can you say "Bye bye"?
Jay: Can you say "bring yo ass on"?
Angie: *laughs* 
Bey: Hush! *kisses Jayden* See you later baby. 
Jay: So dramatic. Come on. See ya later lil man. 


*They leave and head the restaurant. They get seated, order their food, and began eating* 

Jay: You know that I love you to death right?
Bey: Yes. Where did that come from? 
Jay: I just want to be a better man to you. I need to really start showing you that I ain't shit without you. Like I used to be able to keep a smile on your face. But lately we've done nothing but fight and then sex it out. Sometimes. We really gotta work on stating how we feel about shit. If we wanna get married. You know what I'm saying? 
Bey: Yeah I know what you're saying. I feel the same way. I too wanna become better to you. I hate fighting and arguing, though the making up is incredible. *smiles* I don't wanna take any of these bad habit into our marriage. I love you Shawn. I don't wanna spend my life with anyone other than you. 
Jay: *smiles* And my lil man right?
Bey: *smiles* Yeah. *rubs his face* My two favorite guys!
Jay: *smiles* *winks* ....Bey, I read that poem or song, that you wrote.
Bey: Really? How?
Jay: Because you left it in the bed. I thought it was very heart felt and deep. It brought tears to my eyes actually. 
Bey: Every time I think about it. I get emotional-
Jay: You have every right to. But don't feel as though it's your fault, because its not. We had no control over it. Well we did in a way. But you know that God has a plan for us both. Its nothing to create another baby. *moves eyes brows up and down*
Bey: *giggles* I think we should. 
Jay: Think we should what? practice or really make a baby.
Bey: Both. *smiles* 
Jay: You sure wanna get pregnant right now? You have work to get back to. 
Bey: So. I don't care about that stuff right now. 
Jay: Bey baby, I don't think-
Bey: Shawn, I really want to.
Jay: ...Alright. Your wish is my command. 
Bey: I wanna have a girl this time around. 
Jay: Girls are too much work. But I wouldn't mind having a girl. 
Bey: Oh Lord..You ready for Jayden's birthday party? 
Jay: Yeaahh. Can you believe lil man is going to be a whole year?
Bey: Time flew by quickly. It seems like yesterday I was pregnant with him.
Jay: That pregnancy was...tough. After all that stress. He turned pretty good. 
Bey: Aahh, He's okay. *giggles* He takes after you in some departments. 
Jay: *chuckles* Ayee. What are you trying to say? Which departments?
Bey: Snoring. You guys both raise your eyebrows the same way when you two are upset or sad. He sleeps just like you, right hand on your cheek with your left knee up, mouth opened wide. Same blank stare when you guys watch TV. Neither one of you guys can be away from me for 5 minutes. *smiles* 
Jay: *laughs* You're reaching with the last one. That may be accurate for Jayden but NOT for me.
Bey: *giggles* Stop lying. You don't have to lie to kick it.
Jay: *chuckles* Yeah babe, whatever helps you sleep at night.
Bey: You.
Jay: Huh?
Bey: You. You help me sleep at night. 
Jay: *smiles* Oh yeahh? You gone sleep REALLY GOOD tonight.
Bey: *winks* I know. 
Jay: Bey?
Bey: Yes?
Jay: I think you should tell your family about the miscarriage. 
Bey: *sighs* Now why did you have to bring that up?
Jay: Because I think that they should know.
Bey: Why? For what? So I tell them. What is going to solve, babe?
Jay: Maybe nothing. But if they know they'll stop bringing up the fact that they want you to have another baby. I saw the look on your face when Solange and Ty brought up you having another baby. I know that it hurts. 
Bey: Of course it hurts Shawn. I don't want to tell them, because I don't want everyone's pity and sympathy. I don't need or want all of that attention. 
Jay: But they should know whats going on with you. They're going to be there for you. Thats what family is for, babe. 
Bey: I know that-
Jay: Can I be honest with you?
Bey: *sighs* Go ahead.
Jay: I think that you should focus on Jayden right now. Having another baby isn't our best interest. You have a career that is going to steal your attention. Our wedding is around the corner-
Bey: Alright babe, I get it. 
Jay: You sure that you get it? Do you really understand where I'm coming from?  
Bey: Yes. You're right. I guess we should wait to have another baby. 
Jay: You mean that?
Bey: Yes.I do. 
Jay: Speaking of wedding. We haven't picked a place for our honeymoon. 
Bey: I know huh? We've been so wrapped up in everything else. 
Jay: Yeaaahh. Where do wanna go?
Bey: I don't know. Where did you want to go?
Jay: Uuumm. Either San Tropez or St Barts. 
Bey: What about Spain, South of France. 
Jay: Doesn't matter where we are. All I'll see is you. *winks* 
Bey: *blushes* That's very sweet. *smiles* 
Jay: How long are going to be on the honeymoon anyway? 
Bey: Just a few days. You know I can't stay away from my baby boy. 
Jay: *chuckles* *shakes head* Yeah I know. 
Bey: Maybe like 2 or 3 days. 
Jay: Thats cool. Who is going to watch him?
Bey: My mama said that she would have no problem watching him. 
Jay: Coo. You know we still have to get Jayden's suit. 
Bey: Oh yeahhhh. I forgot all about that. You should call your taylor. 
Jay: Yeah. I'll call him tomorrow morning. What are we going to do with his hair?
Bey: *gives him "his hair is just fine look"* Whats wrong with his hair? 

Jay: Have you not looked your son's hair lately?
Bey: Looks fine to me. I like his hair. 
Jay: Its too long. Curls everywhere. 
Bey: You don't like his hair, babe?
Jay: ...Its just all over the place. He needs a line up, or something.
Bey: As long as you don't cut it completely off. 
Jay: I want to, but I'll take him to get a trim. 
Bey: What color are you and Jayden's suits?
Jay: Are you suppose to know that? Isn't that suppose to kept secret? *chuckles* 
Bey: *giggles* You aren't suppose to see my dress until I walk down the isle. Silly. 
Jay: Ohh..well....I'm still not telling you. You gotta wait and see. 
Bey: Oh goodness. 


(Bey) 
Shawn and I continued to talk, laugh, and joke. This dinner date was filled with nothing but smiles. It felt great to feel what I felt in the beginning of our relationship. I see why I fell in with him in the first place. His smile, his whole entire face lights up when he smiles. His eyes, his eyes speak to my heart. His voice, his voice is high, deep and raspy all at the same time. I love it. His scent; his scent lingers, a smell that  I can never forget. His laugh, a laugh that makes me laugh. His hands and fingers; so smooth, as he caressed my face when he said "You are the most beautiful woman to me". I bashfully blushed at his statement. He warmed my heart and soul. I smiled big. "You are the most handsome man to me" I said as I winked at him. He licked his big soft lips as he  winked, replacing the "Thank you". We interlocked our  fingers.

(Jay)
Sitting here with Beyonce right now is making me realize why I want to spend the rest of my life with her. What I'm feeling at this moment is something that I never want to go away. In this very moment I feel what I felt when I decided to settle down with her all those years ago. She is hands down the most amazing person that walks this planet. Any other woman wouldn't have put up with anything or everything that I've put her through. Which tells me that she truly loves me and I can't let her go. Her eyes; light brown, they spoke to me when she said "I love you, Shawn". Hearing her say that gave me butterflies. I'mma softy, I know. Her smile, so beautiful, makes me warm. Her laugh, so cute and dorky. Sometimes loud, but I love it. Her voice, raspy but sweet. That one dimple on her right cheek; it appears when she smiles sometimes and when she says certain words. We finished our dinner. By this time its around 9 something. We left the restaurant and drove to Cold Stone to get some ice cream. The clerk was a fan, so we signed her apron. Then we decided to take a stroll. We talked and ate our ice cream. We made it back home and went straight to the bedroom. No hesitation. 


Bey: I see you're wasting no time. *giggles* 
Jay: *licks lips* No ma'am *lays Bey down on the bed*
Bey: *pulls Jay on top of her* *looks into his eyes* I love you, baby. 
Jay: I love you more, Beyonce. *kisses her passionately* 
Bey: Make love to me until the sun rises. 
Jay: *kisses her neck* Yes ma'am.  *kisses her forehead* *kisses her lips* 


(Bey) 
Shawn kissed me so passionately. Some much love went to into this kiss. Our tongues danced. This kiss wasn't a lust filled kissed. Love only. Eyes closed. His hands explored my body. Mine explored his. He unbuckled my pants and unzipped my zipper, without breaking the kiss. I broke the kiss to take his shirt off. He got off of me and pulled my heels off. He then took his socks and shoes off. I pulled him back on top of me. The kissing began again. I unbuckled his pants. He helped me by taking his pants off. I took his shirt off. He sucked on neck and his he slid his hand up my shirt. Squeezing my right boob. I pulled my shirt over my head and threw it. He sat me up to unhook my bra. I smiled at him and he smiled back. My nipples felt a warm sensation from his mouth. I let a slight and light moan leave my lips. He pulled my pants off, along with my panties. He was on his knees. I pulled his boxers down. Mandingo and my eyes met. I bit my lip causing Jay to chuckle. He laid on top of me. I opened my legs, stuck my tongue down his throat, and wrapped my arms around his neck. Then I felt his penis being rubbed up and my clit. I felt myself becoming wet. He trailed his tongue from neck to my boobs. He stopped and began to suck each other. Leaving read marks all over my chest and breast. He licked me down to my vagina. The roof of my vagina felt his tongue and then he sucked it hard. I moaned, I got wetter. He kissed my lips. I closed my eyes. He went to work on my vagina and blew my mind. He licked, sucked, slurped me up. Sticking his tongue inside of me. His tongue was like a mop in my vagina. Touching each wall. I moaned while rubbing his head. He pulled his tongue out and began to suck hard, which caused me to cum. He swallowed it. 


Jay: *licks his lips* Mmm. You taste good. *winks* 
Bey: *smiles* Now its my turn to taste you. 
Jay: *lays down* 


(Jay) 
She started off by laying on top of me. Sucking, licking, and biting on my neck. Grinding her pussy against my dick. Shit. I'm about to burst. My dick grew harder. The anticipation of the warmth that I wanted to receive from her mouth, or her pussy. She continued to do what she was doing. Letting moans escape from her lips. Making me even more horny. I can't take the wait, so I rolled on top of her. She giggled. "Couldn't wait huh." She said. "Hell nah" I replied. I tongued her down. She opened her legs wider. I slid inside of her, all of me. He body jumped slightly. I continued to tongue kiss her, stroking into her slowly. She wrapped arms around my neck. Our body moved at the same pace. My right hand explored her right thigh. I stopped kissed her and sped up my strokes to a medium pace. My face was buried her neck. She moaned directly in my ear. I sucked her neck, and then I bit her ear. She started to twerk her pussy. "Ohhhh SHIT! Twerk daddy's pussy baby" I shouted. She moaned. "Fuuuccccckkkkk" I said as I felt her tighten herself around me. I pulled myself up to my knees and l opened her legs, spreading them as far as they good go. Pounding her pussy quickly. She started breathing heavy. Biting her lips. "Shaaaawwwwwnnnnn" She moaned as she said my name. I began to sweat, as did she. "Twerk that pussy" I demanded. She started fucking the shit outta me. Rotating and grinding on me. I met her strokes and after 10 minutes. We both came. We came hard. She had an intense orgasm. 


Bey: *catching breath* Lord hammery. I love you!
Jay: Ohh yeahh? Show me then. *lays on his back*
Bey: *looks at him* *bites her bottom lip* 


(Bey)
I slid down onto Jay. He was inside of me, all the way. I lean in and tongued him down. He slapped my ass with both of his hands. I began to grind on him, causing myself to moan. Each stroke made me wetter. He bit his lip and then a deep moan left his lips. We locked eyes. He winked at me and moaned some more as I continued to grind on him. "Ride daddy's dick faster" he demanded. I tighten up and rotated at a medium pace. I becoming even more sweaty. He gripped both of my boobs and he met my strokes. "Jaaaaayyy!!" I moaned. "Whose is it?" he asked then he moaned. "Its youuuurrrrssss!!!" I replied. "Who owns this pussy, Bey?" he asked in forceful voice. I moaned. "Shit daddy. Youuuuuuuu dooooooooooo!! Ooooooo shit!!" I managed to say. "I own this pussy, baby? Huh? " he asked as he placed his hand on my hips, stroking into me. "Yesssssssss Shaaaawwwnnnn. Yooou oooowwwnnn ittttttt!!" I said. He took full control. Pounding me hard and fast. I got wetter and wetter. I couldn't breath. I started gasping. My mouth was wide open, but no sound came out. He was hitting the right spot. I felt my peek reaching. Something shot through my body. I came, I came harder than the last time. I fell onto Jay's body. My body shook and trembled. I bit the shit outta his neck. He pounding me faster. I started screaming and pleading for him to stop. He kept going. My hair was in his left hand and my ass was in his right hand. He stroked me. He pounded me. He flipped me over and nutted on my stomach. 


Jay: *catching breath* Shit! My neck is burning.
Bey: *giggles* Sorry baby. 
Jay: *kisses her lips* It okay babe. *stands up and pulls Bey up* 


(Jay) 
I took her in the bathroom and put her on the top of the counter. She pulled me close and kissed me. I put her arms around my neck. She was ready for the dick but I wanted to tease her. I massaged her clit as I sucked her neck. "Come ooonnn babe!" she said. I continued. "Baaaaaabe, I want it!" she begged. "What you want, baby?" I asked. She moaned. "I want youu." I shoved myself all the way into her. She gasped and wrapped her legs around me. I placed my hands on the mirror for support and began thrusting slowly. She moaned and took deep breaths right into my ear. "I looooove it, daddy" she whispered in my ear. Her tongue ran up and down my neck. That shit felt good as fuck, because it was just the tip of her tongue. Then she started sucking and biting my neck. "Shit. Thid pussy feels so fuckin good" I moaned. "Faster babe" she said. "Yes ma'am" I replied. I went as fast as I could. She started moaning my name repeatedly. After 5 minutes she came and had another intense orgasm. She dug her nails into my back. I continued. One last nut and a few minutes later. I came. We stayed in the same positions as we caught our breaths. 


Bey: Carry me to the bed please?
Jay: *chuckles* Aight. *picks her up* *walks back to the room*
Bey: I'm so high on your love. 
Jay: I know. *winks* 
Bey: I love you.
Jay: *lays her down* I love you too baby. *lays next to her*
Bey: *looks at him* You really mean that?
Jay: Of course I mean it. Daddy is tired. *pulls her close* Lets go to sleep. *covers them up*
Bey: Good night, Shawn.
Jay: Good night , Beyonce. 


(The next morning at Angie's House)


Bey: *holding Jayden* Was he any trouble? 
Angie: Nope. Surprisingly. He was good. He barely cried. 
Bey: I think thats because he likes you.
Angie: *flips hair* Well, I mean whats not to like. *giggles*
Bey: Oh Lord. *giggles* 
Jay: You can put him down. He can walk now. 
Bey: Maybe I wanna hold him. 
Jay: I'mma break this holding him all day long thing. *takes Jayden and makes him stand, while holding his hand*
Jayden: *cries* *looks up at Jay* *holding his hand up*
Bey: See!
Jay: See nothing. He's fine. 
Bey: He can't walk that good yet. 
Angie: Well he has to learn Bey. 
Jay: Thats what I try to tell her. 
Bey: Yeahh yeah yeaahhh. 
Angie: Did you two love birds have a good time last night?
Bey: *smiles* Yeah we did. *giggles*
Angie: Ooooooo. Look at the smile. What did you do to my cousin, Jay? *giggles* 
Jay: *chuckles* I'm sure she's gonna call you later on and tell you.
Angie: *giggles* And you ARE right!
Bey: *giggles* Anyway. Thank you for watching him, I owe you. *hugs her* 
Angie: You're welcome. I'm glad y'all had a good time.
Bey: I'mma get outta here. Love you. 
Angie: Love you too. 


(Bey & Jay's House)


(Jay) 
It was about 3 in morning. I had to piss, so I went to the bathroom. Took a piss and washed my hands. When I went back to the bed I realized that Bey wasn't there. So I figured that she was in Jayden's room. I went to into Jayden's room and there was no sign of her. I covered him up and went to look for her. As I walked down the hallway I heard sniffling. It was coming from the living room. I walked faster. There Bey was, on the couch, knees touching her chest, with her arms wrapped around her legs. Eyes fulls of tears. I was confused. I didn't know why she was crying. She didn't see me or hear me. I walked over to the couch. She kept crying. I just sat next her and put my arms around her, as she cried into my chest. I wanted to know what was going on and why she was crying so hard. Seeing her in this state was almost heart breaking for me. I hate seeing her cry. Everything was all good just hours away. I continued to hold her. I held her tight. She finally stopped crying five minutes later.


Jay: Babe, whats wrong? Why are you crying?
Bey: *silent*
Jay: Baby, tell me whats wrong. 
Bey: ...The miscarriage. 



To Be Continued....