Monday, May 28, 2012

Freakum Dress

(Bey)
I took the test from Angie. Went into take the test. Angie and I sat on the bed. We sat in silence. Waiting for the 15 minute alarm to go off. "Ding ding".


Bey: Can you look at it?
Angie: *looks at it* Beyonce?
Bey: *scared* Huh?


*Jay knocks on the door*



Bey: Its open!
Jay: *opens door holding Jayden* Beyonce, can I talk to you for a minute?
Angie: Oop! Thats my cue to leave. See you guys later. *hugs them*
Bey: See you later. Love you. 
Angie: Love you too. Call me. *leaves*
Bey: *looks at Jay* What is it?
Jay: You wanna sit down?
Bey: Yeah I guess. *sits down*
Jay: *sits down* *reaches in his pocket* Can you put this ring back on? 
Bey: Why?
Jay: *sighs* Look Beyonce, I have something that I need to tell you.
Bey: Great! More bad news. What now?
Jay: The truth is...when I left here I did go to the airport. I got on the plane but I realized that I needed to stay. I got off the plane and came back here. I wanted some time to myself. To think about everything. I uhh..I..
Bey: Spit it out boy!
Jay: ....I never went to any strip club. I never slept with anyone at all. Period. I stayed in the hotel room all night thinking us and our family. It was all a joke. 

(Jay)
Beyonce took Jayden from my arms. She stood up and looked at me. She had this devilish, evil look in her eyes. I knew she was beyond upset. My joke wasn't funny to her at all. She slapped the dog shit outta me. My face started to burn. That shit hurt like a bitch. I didn't let the pain from that slap show. I deserved it. She took that "joke" hard. I felt like shit. As I should. She spoke.

Bey: Shawn, what hell is wrong with you?? Why would you do that to me??
Jay: *stands up* It was a joke, babe. I didn't think you'd believe me. 
Bey: You know how am I, Jay! That was stupid! Do you see me ha-ha laughing ?NO!
Jay: Im sorry! *tries to touch her*
Bey: *pushes him off* DONT! Touch me. 
Jay: I-
Bey: You saw the way that I reacted! Why did you continue to play with my emotions?
Jay: I just wanted you to-
Bey: I don't care! You took it way too far! 
Jay: Im-
Bey: Seeing my reaction should have changed your mind! That was stupid and childish! 
Jay: I know.
Bey: Jay, you overreacted. You did way too much when you left in the first place.
Jay: Bey-
Bey: I'm not done yet...I understand you being upset that I kept that from you and that-Stop Jayden-I actually let it happen-
Jay: You gone let me talk now?
Bey: *rolls eyes* Go ahead!
Jay: Beyonce, I'm sorry for playing that joke on you. It was childish like you said. I should have never left in the first place. I took it too far. Hell, I shouldn't have felt any type of way. Considering the fact that I've cheated on you too many times. You and I been through so much. I love you Beyonce. Can you forgive me?
Bey: *silence*
Jay: Babe?
Bey: .....I forgive you, Jay.
Jay: Can I have a hug and a kiss please, so I know its real?
Bey: *hugs and kisses him* I love you. 
Jay: I love you more...Can you put this ring back on?
Bey: *holds hand out* Yeah. *giggles*
Jay: *slides ring on her finger* Don't ever take this ring off! *kisses her* Ever again. 
Bey: *laughs* Don't give me a reason and I wont! *kisses him*
Jay: I won't! I promise. *kisses her* *rubs his face where Bey slapped him*
Bey: *laughs* Sorry about your face baby. 
Jay: Yeah! That shi- that slap was powerful. That mess hurt! But I took it like a goon tho. 
Bey: Jay baby! We're about to get married. This wannabe "goon" coonery has to and end! Read my lips Shawn Carter! You. Are. Not. A. Goon. Deal wit it boo! 
Jay: Babe, Im from Marcy. Goon life! *chuckles* 
Bey: Goons don't own yachts, goons don't travel, goons don't wear boat shoes without socks,  goons don't own businesses, goons don't get married-
Jay: Ight Bey! Damn! I get it! *chuckles*
Bey: Shall I continue babe? 
Jay: Nah babe. I don't mind giving up my goon affiliation for family.
Bey: Aaaaw, Jay! Like you really had another choice. You're so cute.  
Jay: *laughs* Speaking of the wedding. Lets and talk about it. 
Bey: Okay. 

*They walk into the living area. On the couch.  Bey props her feet on Jay's lap. Jayden is sitting in Bey's lap*

Jay: What kind of cake are we having?
Bey: I don't know. I was thinking about red velvet, of course.
Jay: Well, I think we should have more than one cake. Not everyone likes red velvet.
Bey: Oh. Whose wedding is it again?
Jay: *chuckles* Ours, but everyone wants to eat cake babe.
Bey: Fine. I guess we could have more than one. 
Jay: Alright. Vanilla, or white cake. However you call it. And chocolate cake!
Bey: Three whole cakes, babe?
Jay: Yeah. A variety.
Bey: I guess thats cool.
Jay: Do you want have a band or do you want a DJ?
Bey: Hmm! Thats a tough one. A band is very elegent. But A DJ is cool too.
Jay: I think we should go with a band orchestra. Thats sweeeeet! 
Bey: Okay. Band it is.
Jay: Should we have a buffet or a caterer?
Bey: A buffet? That is so ratchet babe.
Jay: Nothing is wrong with a buffet. Bougie ass! *chuckles*
Bey: Not at my wedding sir! 
Jay: Your wedding? *side eyes* What? Whose wedding?
Bey: Thats what I said. Ugh! Babe, you're really getting old. You should invest in a hearing aid.
Jay: You know what...I would say something. But not in front of the boy! There wouldn't be a wedding if I hadn't gotten on my knee.
Bey: Tuh! Damn right. I sure as hell wasn't going to get on anyone's knee! *laughs*

*Bey and Jay continue to talk about the wedding and planning it. Bey and Jay decided they wanted to go out a date. So they called Mama Tina and asked her watch Jayden while they go out. She agreed to keep him. Jay was ready to go but of course Lateonce wasn't ready. Jay was wearing all back.* 

Jay: Come on babe. What is taking you so long? 
Bey: Be quite. We go through this EVERY SINGLE time. Wait! 
Jay: *sighs heavy* Do you have to be late to EVERYTHING?
Bey: *doing hair* I'm not always late. I'm almost ready!
Jay: You said that an hour ago tho.
Bey: Meaning I was almost done with my make up. You didn't listen. *giggles* 
Jay: Yeah yeah yeah. Just come on. 
Bey: Okay okay. *walks out the bathroom* NOW, I'm ready. 
Jay: Shit! Fuck going out. Lay ya ass on this bed. 
Bey: *blushes* Stop. *puts heels on* You ready? *giggles*
Jay: Do me a favor first?
Bey: What is it?

Jay: Bend over, touch you, and hold your ankles!
Bey: *laughs* Come on boy. Stop playing. 
Jay: You know that ass is MINE, when we get back right?
Bey: Hmmp. We'll see. *walks out the door* 
Jay: Hol up! You ain't wearing this dress. Its too fuckin tight. Ya ass is stickin out and shit. 
Bey: Stop playing, babe. Lets go. I thought you were ready to go.
Jay: Yeah, you're lucky. Or else I'd make that ass go change. Come on woman. Wit cho sexy ass.
Bey: *giggles*


*They let the hotel and get in the car. On their way to the club* 


Jay: I'm getting yo ass drunk tonight. *chuckles* 
Bey: *giggles* What else is new?
Jay: I'm getting some drunk pussy tonight.
Bey: *looks at him* Are you now?
Jay: DAMN RIGHT! *rubs her thigh* 
Bey: I'm not drunk, yet. *moves his hand* Don't try it. *giggles* 


*They reach the club and get inside. The club is packed* 


Jay: Lets make our to the VIP!
Bey: Lead the way!
Jay: Nah. Walk in front of me. You gone get lost walking behind me. Plus I wanna watch yo ass as you're walking.
Bey: Oh Lord. *giggles*  *walks in front of him
Jay: *looks at her ass* Dayuuuuum! That thang sittin high. I puts in major WORK!
Bey: Hush!


(Bey) 
Jay and I made it the VIP section. There was few other people. Wasn't too familiar with them but whatever. Of course Jay was serious about getting me drunk. As soon as we sat down he poured me a drink. Being the drunk slob that I am, I took the drink. He poured himself a drink, of course he gave me more than he gave himself. So I poured way more in his cup. "You're not going to play me. No sir!" I said with a little laugh. "Ahhhhh shit. You got me" ! Jay held his cup in the air. I put my cup in the air as well. Toasting. "Tonight! We're gettingggg faaadeeeddd" Jay said already sounding like he was drunk. I laughed and we both sipped our drinks. I don't what I was drinking but it sho is good as hell! We both looked at each other with goofy faces. I guess because we didn't expect it to taste like that. We both downed our drinks. Then the song that was playing changed to none other then "Freakum Dress" ! How funny. I was wearing a black and gold freakum dress.


Jay: Ayeeeee! *stands up* Get up and back it up!
Bey: *shakes head* *giggles* *rolls eyes* *stands up* 
Jay: *stands behinds Bey, placing his is hands on her waist*
Bey: *two steps* *singing along* 
Jay: You don't need sing along! *chuckles* We know!
Bey: *giggles* Shut up. *dances on Jay* 
Jay: Ayeee! *dances with her*
Bey: *drops it down* *presses her ass again the peen and comes up slowly* Haaaa.
Jay: *pours her another drink* Here. Drink this.
Bey: You're tryna get me drunk huh?
Jay: Hell yeah! You thought I was playing. *pours himself a drink*


*They both down their drinks* * "Look Back At Me" came on*


Bey: *sticks tongue out* *backs it on Jay*
Jay: Ayeeee! *puts hands in the air* *dances with Bey*
Bey: *looks back* *twerks*
Jay: You showing out huh, Bey? 
Bey: *faces Jay* Jay, what did you put in my cup? *two steps* 
Jay: You faded are alright. Light weight.
Bey: *jamming* A little tispy!




*Song changes to "Gettin Some Head" *


Jay: Haaaaa!! *bobs head* Imma get some head!
Bey: *laughs* We'll see. *winks* 
Jay: *turns her around, putting her ass against the peen* 


*Song changes to "Pop Lock And Drop It* 


Bey: Ohhhhh!! This is myyyy jaaaaam!! *pops locks and drop it on Jay* 
Jay: *shakes head* 
Bey: *faces Jays and puts her arms around his neck and grinds on him*
Jay: *holds her ass* ....*hands her another drink*
Bey: Another one? Lord boy, that's enough.
Jay: Just drink it. 



(Jay)
This night consisted of me and Bey drinking. Mainly Bey cos I had to drive. She gave me a lap dance for damn near every song. She was twerkin on me when she sat on my lap. It was funny to see her drunk. She's hilarious. The night went on. I thought that I saw a familiar face. Im tispy so. Could have been no one I knew. I shrugged it off and continued to have a good time with my fiance, Beyonce.

(Bey)
Im so drunk. Jay has to hold onto me, as we walk out the club. I could barely walk straight. People kept bumping into me. It made me laugh. Why? I don't know. We made it to the car amd he helped me get in. He put my seat belt on and walked around to the other side to get in. 

Bey: Jayyyyyyyyy! *laughs*
Jay: *chuckles* What's up sexy?
Bey: When weeeee geeeeet baaaack! I want youuuu to fu-
Jay: Oh I plan to. *chuckles* Don't even worry about that lil mama. 
Bey: You just knew what I was gonna say huh? 
Jay: Mhmm. *starts car and pulls off*
Bey: Jay, Im hungry.
Jay: Okay. I'mma feed you this DICK! Just hold on!
Bey: *cracks up*
Jay: *laughs* Funny huh?

*They reach the hotel and make it the room*

(Jay)
When I opened the door. I picked Beyonce up and carried her to the bed. I threw her on the bed. She giggled a little bit. She likes that shit. I took my jacket, shirt, and shoes off. I climbed on top of her, positioning myself between her legs.  She tongued me down. The kiss was sloppy. Good kiss nonetheless. Bey started to unbuckle my belt and my pants as we were kissing. She was feigning for the dick already. I took my pants off and threw them on the floor. I slid my hand up and down her right thigh as I kissed her. Our tongues were wresting. My dick was slowly rising. I wanted to get the pussy wet, so I put my hands up her dress. Rubbing her clit with my thumb. She started moaning. I took my two fingers and rubbed hard but slowly. She loved it. She started breathing a little heavy. By this time she was wet. I flipped her onto her stomach to unzip her dress. I ripped her dressed off and threw it on the floor. I put her on all fours. Time to feast on the pussy. I pulled her black thong all the way down.  I took a second before I devoured her pussy to see how wet she was. Just how I like it. I kissed her left ass cheek, then the right, then the left and the right again. I licked each ass cheek as well. I got low enough to eat it. Spreading her ass cheeks. I gripped it then slapped it and then spreading them again. I then began to eat it up like it my last meal. Licking, sucking, slurping it up. She moaned loud and screamed. I french kissed the pussy. I stuck my stuck inside to make her cum. Wiggling my tongue around and in and out. She came and slurped it up. After she came I took off everything else that we had on off. I got directly behind her and grabbed her waist with both of my hands. "You ready for daddy's dick baby?" I asked. "Mhmm" was her response.  I ran my fingers through her hair her and gripped a hand full of it. I slowly put my dick inside. As I was going deep she let out the sexiest moan. Made my dick grow harder. I thrusted in and out slowly. She moaned each time I went in. I sped it up. Placing my hand on her ass, still pulling her hair. My breathing was becoming uneven. "Shaaaaaaaawn!" She said screaming in pleasure. I slapped her ass after each thrust. I was moaning and grunting. I left go of hair to grip her ass. I wanted to go faster. She got wetter each second. Sweat was growing upon me. My sweat dripped from onto Bey. I put my right hand on the left side of her hip and my left on her right. I went as fast as I possibly could. She screamed at the top of her lungs. She started sweating. I was going hard and it was making her weak. She dropped her head. She tried to run but I grabbed her by her hair. Gently. She was begging for mercy. "No more. No more baby! Shiiiiiiiiit boy! Stooooooooop" She moaned! "Shut up Beyonce. Take this fuckin dick" ! She responded with a loud moan. All you hear was sounds of our moans, heavy breathing, and the sound of my dick hitting her pussy. The wetness was loud. Held her ass with both hands. I slowed down. "Make me cum Pop Pop!" I went HAM. She shouted that she was cumming. She had an intense orgasm. She came. I pumped 5 hard times and nutted on her ass. She had my dick looking like I stuck it in snow. We both collapsed. I laid on top of her. 

(Bey) 
Our sweaty bodies were close. I wasn't finished and neither was he. He had his arms out to the side. My necks is where he sucked and licked. Both sides. He spread my legs wide. Massaging my clit causing me moan. I got wet as the pacific ocean. He smirked at how wet I was. He slid inside of me. Slowly he stroked me. I was in heaven and then some. He gently shoved more of himself inside of me. Going in as far he could. I felt every bit of him. My vagina walls felt all of him. As he pumped in and out at a medium pace, he face was buried in my neck. He was breathing heavy and moaning. It turned me on even more. I tighten myself around him. He went nuts and went faster and harder. I started screaming his name. "Who runs this pussy?" he asked breathing uneasy. "Youuuuu doooooooo" I moaned. "daddy what?" he said as he moaned. "Youu ruuuuuun itttttttttttt! Ooooooooo daddddyyyyyyy!" I replied. "Say it again!" he said as he pulled my hair causing my neck to bend back. Jay bite the shit outta my neck! It felt good but was painful at the same time. I moaned. I could tell that he was reaching his peek. So was I. "You run it daddy" ! As I came I had another orgasm. My body shook. "Mmmmm!" Jay put his dick   right on the crack of my ass and let his nuts drip down my crack. He grunted and moaned as he was cumming. We caught our breathes. He rolled over onto his back, indicating that he wanted me to ride him. Jay pulled me on top of him. His dick was standing straight up. I slid on down slowly putting him inside of me. I moaned. He bite down on his bottom lip. I began riding him very slowly. I knew was on cloud 9, because he closed his eyes. He had his hands on my ass. Grinding slowly is I was doing. I watched Jay enjoy it. "Jaaaaayyyyy" . I moaned. He slapped my ass telling me to sped up the pace. I rode his hard and fast. His eyes shot open. I was screaming, shouting, moaning his name. "Mhmm! Ride that dick baby." He gripped both of my boobs. I swirled on his dick. Slowly, then fast, slow, then fast again. The room is filled with our sexual voices, bouncing off of the walls. I rode his dick like a roller coaster, with no hands. Sweaty is understatement. I was reaching my peek. Jay sensed that I was. He held my waisted and thrusted in and out fast. I couldn't speak, even breathe for that matter. My mouth was wide open but nothing came out. I tried to shout but nothing left my lips. I came. And I came hard. I felt my cum ooze out. I was having the best orgasm ever. I felt this warm tingle take over my body as it shook. I couldn't control it. Jay hadn't reached his peek yet. He was nearing it. The look on his face said it all. He slowed down but still went hard. He was going to nut inside of me. I got up from on top of him. 

(Jay)
I rolled on top of Bey and tongued her down. Spreading her legs as I went deep. She was wet. I swirled in circles. Changing my pace from fast to slow every 10 seconds. Bey couldn't handle it, but she was enjoying it. "Baaaabbbbbyyyy" she yelled. I sucked her right titty as I continued to swirl my dick into her. My swirls hit her pussy hard. I wrapped her legs around my waist. Pounding her pussy was my favorite. She always runs which makes me want her more. I was going hard causing myself to sweat even more. "Give me a fuckin kiss" I demand. Bey moaned loudly and gave me my kiss. I kissed her passionately while pounding her slowly. Rubbing her pussy is what I'm doing. I was ready for my nut, so I threw her legs over my shoulders. Showing her pussy courtesy nor any mercy. I tore her shit up. She tried pushing me off but I threw her hands down. All I could do is breath heavy. She was losing her mind. Her eyes rolled to the back of her head. I sucked on her bottom lip. After 5 minutes she came. Creamy. I came shortly after. I rolled over. Laying next to her.  We caught our breathes. "Damn. We needed that." I said. "Badly" she replied. We shared a kissed. We got underneath the covers. Bey buried her face in my chest and threw her leg on me. "I love you, baby" we said in unison. We laughed..I happen to notice the pregnancy test on the night stand. Im tired to even move. We'll talk about it in the morning. We fell asleep.



To Be Fucking Continued...



Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Two Wrongs

(Bey)
It was the next morning. I woke up because Jayden kicked me in mouth. I was extremely tired. I was up with him all night long. He wouldn't back to sleep for anything when his dad left. He was still sleeping. Thank God. I looked at the night stand and looked at my phone. It was 10:31. I had a missed call from my mom. I didn't wanna be bothered. I miss Jay. I know that it was messed up, but I feel like he overreacted. He needs to understand that it was years ago. Not the night before we got engaged. How many times has he cheated on me? Recently! Yeah, I should have told him. But ohh well. I didn't. I can't believe that he left. Knowing that he's only person that person that put him back to sleep when he wakes up in the middle of the night. Im more upset that he left Jayden..Lord this boy is gonna wake up and realize his dad isn't here and have a fit. Thank God that I had a fews days to myself. I got out of the bed and went to my collection of clothes off in the corner. Grabbed one Jay's shirts that I can mine. Some panties. Shorts, as my mom calls them. Coochie cutters. I placed them on the bed. Making sure that Jayden wouldn't fall off of the bed. I put pillows on both sides of him. I took a hot shower. My shower was over within 7 minutes. He was still sleeping. Slightly snoring. I got dressed. He woke up when I dropped my phone on the floor. 

Bey: Heeeey mommy's baby. *picks him up* *kisses him* 
Jayden: *smiles*
Bey: You wanna eat lil man? You hungry, cos mommy is hungry.
Jayden: Djzubsjxbdysnsk  *excited* 
Bey: *giggles* Maybe we should give you a bath first! *kisses him*

(Bey)
I carried him to the bathroom with me. I grabbed his wash cloth and ran it under some warm water. Put some baby wash on it. I placed his bath towel on the bed. Laid him on top of it. I started cleaning him up. I didn't feel giving him an actual bath. I tickled just to hear him laugh. He has the cutest little laugh; he gets it from me. I finished cleaning him up and dressed him in a red onesie and some socks. I order some room service. Eggs and fruit for Jayden. Pancakes, bacon, and eggs for myself. We watched Caillou until the food came. I sat my food aside, so that I could I feed him first. While I was feeding him; I heard the door knob turn. I was a bit scared. "Beyonce?". I was very shocked that it was Jay.


Bey: I'm in here.
Jay: *walks into the living area* Can we talk?
Bey: Now you wanna talk? *gives Jayden a strawberry*
Jay: *sits next to Bey* Yeah. I started to go back home. I was sitting in that airport and I was thinking-
Bey: Do you realize that you just didn't walk out on me. You left your SON as well. 
Jay: I know Bey. I realize that when I got on the plane. I'm sorry b-
Bey: Don't apologize to me. It's Jayden that was crying in the middle of the night.
Jay: *grabs Jayden from Bey's lap* Wassup lil man? *kisses his forehead* Daddy's sorry for leaving you and mommy like that. 
Jayden: *smiles* Hsdnsnsdabdha. *reaches for a grape*
Jay: *grabs fruit bowl* I'll feed him. *gives Jayden a grape* Here. 
Bey: Okay-
Jay: Look babe. I overreacted. I shouldn't have blown up like I did. Especially since it was years ago. I shouldn't care but I should at the same time. But why are you just now telling me this?
Bey: Because I was afraid of you breaking up with me. I didn't want to lose you. I figure that it was better left unsaid. I should have told you and for that I'm sorry. 

Jay: I forgive babe. You forgive me?
Bey: ....Yeah, I forgive you. 
Jay: *kisses her* I love you.
Bey: I love you too.
Jay: From now on. No more secrets. Deal? 
Bey: Deal. *kisses him*One question!
Jay: *gives Jayden a strawberry* What is it?
Bey: Where did you go when you got off the plane. 

Jay: I came back here. Just got my own room to think. 
Bey: *grabs her plate*                      
Jay: What you doing today?
Bey: So how long did you stay at the airport?
Jay: I don't know. Maybe an hour. Why?
Bey: Just asking. What time did you make it back here?
Jay: I don't know Beyonce. Why are you asking me all these damn questions?
Bey: Why did you stay in another room, oppose to coming back in here?
Jay: Cos I didn't want to.
Bey: Mhmm! You were probably out doing something you shouldn't have. Like you always do when something goes wrong or if it doesn't go your way. 
Jay: This time you're actually right.
Bey: Excuse me?
Jay: Just-
Bey: Are you tryna say that you cheated?
Jay: That's exactly what I'm saying. 
Bey: If you're tryna trick me. Stop, because it's not working. 
Jay: Ain't no body tryna trick you. 
Bey: Are you being serious? I don't have time for your stupid games.
Jay: Unlike you I'm being up front and honest about when I do something wrong.
Bey: What are you "being honest" about?
Jay: Going to a strip club and fuckin one of the strippers.
Bey: *rolls eyes* You're so childish. I cheated on you and didn't tell you. I get it. I said sorry. What-
Jay: You think this is a game? You think I'm playing? I'm being truthful. When I come to you and tell that I fucked up you think it's a game-
Bey: Look me in my eyes and say it again. 
Jay: *looks in her eyes* I went to a strip club and brought the stripper back to the hotel and slept with her. 
Bey: Shawn!! How could you do that??
Jay: For the same reason you did. I was drunk. 
Bey: *tears fall* You think two wrongs make it right? That happen years ago. I didn't tell you because I knew you'd get mad and leave..
Jay: You damn right I would have left. Why stay with a cheater?
Bey: For the same reason I've stayed with you all of these years. CHEATER. 
Jay: No one made you stay. That was YOUR choice.
Bey: Do you hear yourself right now?..*wipes tears* Do you enjoy seeing me cry?.....Did you use protection?
Jay: Can't remember. I was too drunk.
Bey: This isn't funny. DID YOU?
Jay: Yeah. I did. 
Bey: I can't believe this. So instead trying to talk to me. You go out and have sex with someone you don't even know. That makes PREFECT sense. 
Jay: Man. At least I told you-
Bey: Is that suppose to make this situation any better? Cos it doesn't. How are we suppose to get married if all we ever do is hurt each other?
Jay: *shrugs* I don't know. 
Bey: Do you see what you do to me?
Jay: To be honest. At this point. I don't care. You always act like you're so innocent. 
Bey: I never said that I was innocent, Jay. I know that I've had my share wrong doings. But never have I done anything out of SPITE. Like you just did. 
Jay: Man. I don't know what you want me to say. What's done is done. Can't take it back. 
Bey: If you could; would you?
Jay: What is that gonna change?
Bey: Just answer the damn question. Shit. You're always tryna avoid everything.
Jay: NO. You happy?
Bey: Why the hell would that make me happy, stupid ass. I swear you do stupid shit just to make me upset. 
Jay: ....*sighs* What you wanna do Beyonce?
Bey: *wipes tears* Why are you acting all nonchalant. As if you didn't just cheat on me. Do you realize that we're on the verge of not getting married because of this?
Jay: I can see that. That's very apparent.
Bey: Why did you even ask me to marry you?
Jay: I thought I knew everything. Guess I was wrong huh?
Bey: *rolls eyes* Why can't you understand that it happen YEARS AGO....Not last night. 
Jay: You think I care when it happen? Point is that it happen. Point, blank, period. 
Bey: Just you like said. What's done is done. So what do we do now?
Jay: I don't care like I said before. 
Bey: What don't you care about, Jay?
Jay: Everything.
Bey: So you're saying that you don't care about anything....Anything at all?
Jay: Nope.
Bey: *shakes head* *rolls eyes* *wipes tears* *takes ring off and places it on the table* *wipes tears* *takes Jayden from Jay* 

(Bey) 
As I grabbed Jayden from Jay, my heart started beat extremely fast. My heart sank to my ass. I looked at Jay for one last time before walking back to my room. He looked as if he had no care in the world. He was acting as though there wasn't a possibilty that this relationSHIT was over. For good. There was no coming back. He didn't even acknowledge the fact I took the ring off. Maybe he really doesn't care. I walked back to the room. Hoping that he would follow me or call after me. But my hopes were way to high. I didn't look back. I reached the room and locked my door. My tears fell harder than ever before. I laid on my back, with Jayden on my chest. He was going to sleep. I looked up at up the ceiling. Watching the fan go. My tears made a puddle in my ears. My life was over. My life flashed before my eyes. All these memories of Jay, our son and I paced back and forth in my head. Which made me even more upset, sad, mad, angry and every other emotion any human being could feel. I should have never told him about that. Ty and Solange told me to keep it to myself. I felt that he should know. I knew he would feel some type of way about it, but I didn't think he would go this far. He took it further than it should have gone. Going to a strip club and having sex with some hoe was to got damn much. Sometimes he could be so childish. I don't even know what's going to happen between the two of us now. The end result was left unsaid. Not mention that I might be pregnant again. Shit. I hate to say this, but I do NOT wanna be pregnant. Bad timing. Very bad. 


(Jay) 
Its time that Beyonce got a taste of her medicine. She looked she was about to die. Her ass will be just fine. I only did it to show her what it feels like. I bet she feels it now. I may have taken it too far but ohh well. Yeah it happen years ago, but the fact of the matter is that she lied and kept it a secret. Truth is I do care. Of course I care. I didn't get on my knee in front of all those crazy ass fans for nothing. I was being the biggest asshole. She cried but what else is new. She always cries. I felt bad just a tad bit. I noticed that she took her ring off. I don't even know how to feel about that. I laid back on the coach. Kicked my shoes off. My mind, my head, and heart raced. Back and forth. I thought about was next for Beyonce and I. I thought about this possible baby on the way. 


(Bey) 
Just as I was slipping into slumber my phone rang. Jayden was still sound asleep. Thank God. It was my mom. Shit. I had a dress fitting today. I totally forgot about it. I didn't wanna be bothered. I didn't wanna tell her that Jay and I may not be getting married after all. Plus I was unsure of just happen between us. I didn't wanna jump to conclusion. I let the voice mail get it. She only called back 5 seconds later. I just answered. Trying to sound like my life didn't just crash into a brick wall.


Bey: Hello?
Mama Tina: Hey baby. What you up to?
Bey: Nothing. I was about to take a nap with Jayden.
Mama Tina: A nap? Did you forget about your dress fitting?
Bey: Aww man. I did.
Mama Tina: Well, wipe that sleep outta your eyes and leave Jayden with his daddy and come on chile.
Bey: Can we do this another day? I'm really tired.
Mama Tina: No Beyonce. Your wedding is approaching. We gotta get this done. Now come on.
Bey: Ma-
Mama Tina: See you in an hour. *hangs up*


(Bey)
Ain't this a bitch. I sighed and shook my head. Laid Jayden on his pillow. He slept peacefully as he snored lightly. I threw and shirt, jeans, and grabbed some heels. Throwing my hair in a messy pony tail, with no make up. I picked Jayden up and walked into the living where Jay was falling asleep. I called his name.


Jay: What is it?
Bey: *laying Jayden on his chest* I'm leaving. He's all yours. 

Jay: Where you going?
Bey: *putting heels on* To a strip club. *grabs her purse* *leaves* 



(Jay) 
She thinks that she's funny. 


(Bey) 
I left. Made it to my car. I rode it silence. My mom rented a studio just to design my dress. I already know that I was gonna be in my feelings. I made to the studio.Thank God for MapQuest. When I got there Angie, Ty and my mom were there. I hugged them and the fitting began. There I was standing the mirror with this gown that was almost finished. Knowing that I may never get the chance to wear this dress hurt. It hurt badly. I tried fighting back my tears as much as possible. They looking at me waiting for my reaction. I leaned my head to the left as I looked into the mirror. My tears could no longer be held back. They fell from my eyes.


Mama Tina: Still can't believe you're getting married in a matter of months, huh?
Ty: It's beautiful, ain't I.
Angie: Awww BB. You look amazing. 
Mama Tina: You excited yet?
Bey: *fake smiles* Yeah. I can't wait. 
Ty: CH..You can't wait for that honeymoon. Freak ass ain't fooling no damn body.
Angie: You better preach that sermon Ty. *they high 5*
Bey: *fake laugh* You guys are too much. 


(Bey)
I took the dress off and changed back into my clothes. I said my goodbye's. I made it to my hotel room. Jay was up with Jayden. They were laughing and all. It brought a smile to my face. I then realized what was going on between us. My smile quickly faded. I walked to Jayden and kissed his forehead. "I love you baby". Jay looked at me and I looked at him. I walked back to my room. I remember about the pregnancy test. I called Angie.


Angie: I just saw you girl. What you want homie. *laughs*
Bey: I need you to do me a favor.
Angie: What is it Bey?
Bey: I need you get go out and buy me a pregnancy test.

Angie: A what?
Bey: A pregnancy test.
Angie: I heard you. Y'all don't believe in condoms? *laughs*
Bey: *fake laughs* Guess not. Can you buy it and bring it to me. 
Angie: Alright. I'll get up now. 
Bey: Thank you.
Angie: No problem. *They hang up*




(Bey)
I sat up in the bed waiting for Angie to come. I flipped through the channels. Angie was here 20 minutes later.


Angie: You need birth control. You gone have a magic school bus soon.
Bey: *laughs* Shut up. *snatches the pregnancy test*




(Bey)
I took the test from Angie. Went into take the test. Angie and I sat on the bed. We sat in silence. Waiting for the 15 minute alarm to go off. "Ding ding".


Bey: Can you look at it?
Angie: *looks at it* Beyonce?
Bey: *scared* Huh?


*Jay knocks on the door*










To Be Fucking Continued....




Shoutout To My Babe Robert For The Help. I Love You!!

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Truth Is




(Jay)
Bey gave Jayden to me while she changed outta her show clothes. We left back to the hotel. She gave Jayden a bath and laid him down. We laid down and watched tv. It didn't look like she was into the movie. Like she was zoned out or something. So I called her name. She didn't respond right away. I rubbed her thigh "babe, you alright?"

Bey: Huh?
Jay: What's up wit you? Are you alright baby?
Bey: Yeah. I'm fine..
Jay: You sure? It seems like something has been buggin you. 
Bey: Nothing is bothering me. I'm fine. 
Jay: Alright. If you say so. I want keep nagging you.


(Jay)
I know she's lying.


Bey: ...Well there is something. 
Jay: I had a feeling. What's bothering you?
Bey: I don't know how to say but-

Jay: Just say it. 
Bey: ....I..I um..
Jay: Spit it out, Beyonce. 
Bey: I think that...I could be pregnant. 
Jay: Is that what you wanted to tell me?
Bey: Yes. What else would it be?
Jay: *shrugs* I don't know. So, you really think that you're pregnant?
Bey: It's possible. My period is late. It could because of the stress. 
Jay: You said that you were on the pill tho.
Bey: I mean I am but-
Jay: But what?
Bey: I was getting to that...BUT I have missed a few days. You don't believe in condoms, so-
Jay: If you are pregnant that explains your mood swings and shit. But if I'm being honest. I'm not ready for another addition to this family. 
Bey: What are you saying, Jay?
Jay: I know that sounds bad, but it's too soon for you to be pregnant again. 
Bey: *slightly upset* And what's going to happen if I am pregnant?
Jay: What you mean "whats going to happen?". That's a stupid question. We're gonna have another baby. 

Bey: *calms down* Ohh okay..I think I should take a test before anything. 
Jay: I agree. Since we're talking. I really need you to take a break after this tour is over. 
Bey: *rolls eyes* Here you go again with this BS.
Jay: Yeah. Here I go. Do you realize that we're getting married in a matter of months. Our son is going to be a year old before the wedding. You've been working non-stop. 
Bey: I have not been working non-stop. I wish you would stop saying that. 
Jay: Are you not a tour? You can't even remember what city we're in. It's very clear that you're exhausted. Movies, music, award shows and everything else. What about us?
Bey: What about you guys?
Jay: Are you serious, Beyonce?
Bey: You took that the wrong way. You know what I meant. 
Jay: You just throwing me and Jayden under the bus. You're negl-
Bey: Neglecting you guys? You can't be for real. I'm with you and Jayden 24/7. You're over exaggerating. AS ALWAYS. Who was with Jayden when you were on tour? I was. How does that say neglect? 
Jay: Okay. But what about you trying to go back in the studio already. Going to the studio on a 3 day break. These days should spend relaxing with your son and fiance.
Bey: So because I want to go into the studio that means that I'm neglecting my family. 
Jay: Yes!!! Why do you need to go in the studio when you just had an album release not to long ago?
Bey: I don't know. I have some songs in my head that I wanna get written down. This is my job, Jay. You of all people should understand. 
Jay: You don't think I know what you're job is. I know better than ANYONE. Shit. Sometimes I feel like you don't wanna get married. All the working you do. Seems like you work so much to be away from-
Bey: How could you think that? You sound stupid! 
Of course I wanna marry you. I said "yes", didn't I? I wouldn't be having sleepless nights trying to plan this wedding-
Jay: Sometimes I wish you weren't "famous"-
Bey: You don't think that I feel the same way about you. We are. We need to accept that and deal with it-
Jay: I am dealing with this shit. But you're the one moving at a fast pace. You need to stop. You're someone's mother. After this tour. Ain't gone be no more working 24/7. At all. You gotta take a break. Enjoy being a mom. If you go to the studio tomorrow we gone have some serious problems. *gets up*
Bey: Jay-
Jay: Look, I said what I needed to say...You coming to bed?
Bey: ....I'll be there in a minute, I guess.




(Bey)
Jay walked back to the bedroom where Jayden was sleeping. I sat on the couch. I didn't even tell him what I really needed and wanted to tell him. I think he knows that wasn't the truth. He is really bugging with this whole I need to take a break foolery. Acting like I don't take care of Jayden. I understand that we're about to get married and he wants to have me all to himself but this is my job....But the truth is that I had sex with one of his back in 2003. Though I didn't know that him and Jay were even friends. It was at an after party of an award show. I got sloppy drunk. Oh my gosh. I was such hoe bag. Him and Jay aren't friends now, but I feel like if we're gonna get married then he should know. I got up and went into the room. He was sitting up  feeding Jayden a bottle. 



Bey: Jay?
Jay: *looks up at her* What's up?
Bey: Can we talk?
Jay: We just did. 

Bey: Clearly. But, I wasn't finished. 
Jay: Alright. Well. Finish.
Bey: *sits besides Jay* The truth is-
Jay: So you lied about to me about possibly being pregnant? 
Bey: Yeah-Well kind of. Because I still could be pregnant...
Jay: Mhmm. Gahead. Finish. 

Bey: This is hard for me to tell you bu-
Jay: Can you just say it?
Bey: Okay. Well I don't know how you're react to this but *closes eyes shut tight and blurts* I had sex with your old friend back in 2003. *opens eyes and look at Jay*
Jay: *looks at her* What you say?
Bey: Please don't make me repeat it. 
Jay: Nah. Say it again. I don't think I heard you clear enough. 
Bey: I-
Jay: You WHAT?
Bey: Please don't yell. Jayden is going to wake up. 
Jay: *looks down at Jayden* *looks at Bey* You did what Beyonce?
Bey: *kind of scared* It was a long time ago Jay-
Jay: I wouldn't give a shit if it happen B.C time. You still did the shit. 
Bey: Let me explain what happen babe-
Jay: What's there to explain? You said it. It fuckin obvious what happen?
Bey: Just listen Jay. It's not as bad as it sound. 
Jay: What the fu-...Gahead. Explain this shit. 
Bey: *sighs* Okay. Well it happen in 2003. We were at an after party of some award show. I got really drunk and it happen. I didn't even that he was your friend until the next when I saw you with him-
Jay: *trying to stay calm* Why the fuck you ain't tell me? You wanna wait all these fuckin years. You waited until I proposed to you. You figured that I wasn't gonna leave-
Bey: I was hoping that you wont. I had to tell you because I felt you should know if we we're gonna get married-
Jay: You gave me HELL for cheating on you and you did the SAME SHIT!! You did it 10 times worse!!! That was some HOE SHIT!!
Bey: I know. It was messed up. I'm sorry. We can't let this stop us from-
Jay: You fucked an old friend of mine and you think I'mma marry you?
Bey: What are you saying Jay?? I'm ALWAYS forgiving you for any and every fucked up you do..Easily. Why can't you do the same??
Jay: Ain't no body tell you to forgive that fuckin easy..Easy is something you're familiar with, I guess.

Bey: Jay, that's not fair and disrespectful. 
Jay: Ask me if I give a fuck. Ask me. Gahead. Ask me. I dare you. 
Bey: *silence*
Jay: *smirks* Funny thing is I don't even care who that "friend" was. Cos I prolly don't even fuck wit whoever the nigga is, was. *shakes his head* I don't even wanna deal with this bullshit. I don't even wanna look at you. 
Bey: Babe, please. I said I was sorry. 
Jay: *hands Jayden over to her* You think your "sorry" is suppose mean shit to me right now. I'm too fuckin mad to give a fuck about you right now. You kept this shit from me for YEARS. Maybe if you woulda told me back then I woulda forgave you. Too fuckin late. *gets up* 
Bey: *tears fall* Where are you going?
Jay: Away from yo lying cheating ass. 
Bey: Jay baby, please don't leave me. Can we please talk this out?? *wipes tears*
Jay: The fuck you want me to say to you Beyonce?
Bey: That you forgive me?
Jay: You must be a crack head if you think that I'm doing bullshit.
Bey: Pleas-
Jay: Look!! I'm leaving. I don't wanna here with you another minute-
Bey: *crying* Jay pleaseeee! *wipes tear* Don't leave!! That's not going to help or fix this!
Jay: *gathering his things into his suit case* Who said I want to fix it.
Bey: *wipes tears* Yes you do. You don't mean that babe.
Jay: Don't tell me what the fuck I mean! Don't cry now. Tears don't MEAN SHIT. 
Bey: How can I not cry, when you're packing your stuff. *wipes* 
Jay: *zips suit case* Give me my son so I can kiss em good bye. *takes Jayden*
Bey: Are you really leaving? 
Jay: *kisses Jayden's forehead* You thought I was playing? *to Jayden* Alright lil man. Daddy is outta here, okay? *kisses his forehead* I'mma see you later. I love you son. Give ya mama a hard time. *mean mugs Jay* 


(Bey) 
Jay gave Jayden back to me. He grabbed his suit case. I called his named but he just ignored me. He left. I didn't bother going after him. I knew that his mind was made up. And there wasn't anything that I could do or say it to to change it. I wasn't aware of where he was headed. Maybe back home. Most likely. He left leaving me clueless. There was no clarification of a break up or anything. I felt terrible about everything. But how could I tell him that it happen. I guess how I just did huh. I can't believe that I let it happen...If I I'm right about Jay, then I know that he just needs his space and time to think. He's gonna come around. I hope..




(Jay) 
Man. I can't believe this shit. I grabbed my shit and headed for the door. I couldn't be around her ass any longer. I wanted to take Jayden with me, but I knew she wasn't gonna let me. I was gonna catch a red eye back to New York. Anywhere away from Beyonce was best. I got down to the lobby and called a cab to pick me up..I sat down in the chair and waited. I don't know even care that it happen, to be honest. It's the fact that she held it from me all these years. She always was one to preach to me about being loyal and honest. What a hypocrite. What else could she be hiding from me. More abortions, more flings. Who knows at this point.Yeah I'm a pissed off that she smashed the homie. But around that time we we're tryna see if we were really be together..My cab made it. I got in. He drove me to airport. I was in luck. I got the last seat in business class late night, early morning.  




To Be Fucking Continued....