Three

Previously On Jayoncé Journey Of Love. Bey, Jay, and Jayden got into a car accident. Bey and Jayden had minor injuries. They found out that Bey had a miscarriage. They took it hard. They went on a date, and fell deeper in love. That night Bey was crying over her miscarriage. 





(Jay) 
It was about 3 in morning. I had to piss, so I went to the bathroom. Took a piss and washed my hands. When I went back to the bed I realized that Bey wasn't there. So I figured that she was in Jayden's room. I went to into Jayden's room and there was no sign of her. I covered him up and went to look for her. As I walked down the hallway I heard sniffling. It was coming from the living room. I walked faster. There Bey was, on the couch, knees touching her chest, with her arms wrapped around her legs. Eyes fulls of tears. I was confused. I didn't know why she was crying. She didn't see me or hear me. I walked over to the couch. She kept crying. I just sat next her and put my arms around her, as she cried into my chest. I wanted to know what was going on and why she was crying so hard. Seeing her in this state was almost heart breaking for me. I hate seeing her cry. Everything was all good just hours away. I continued to hold her. I held her tight. She finally stopped crying five minutes later.


Jay: Babe, whats wrong? Why are you crying?
Bey: *silent*
Jay: Baby, tell me whats wrong. 
Bey: ...The miscarriage. 
Jay: Babe,...I..

Bey: I know. Im sorry.

Jay: Hey! You don't need to be sorry. 

Bey: *sniff* I just don't wanna be sad anymore. It hurts so much.

Jay: *kisses her forehead* I know. But what happen, what made cry like this? 

Bey: *wipes nose* The dream that I had. Well, nightmare. 

Jay: You wanna tell me about it? 

Bey: The night of the car accident. We didn't argue though. You just weren't paying attention. The SVU came outta no where and hit us. I flew outta the windsheild, and the car ran over my stomach. The baby appeared. We stared at each other for a while...*chokes up* and..

Jay: *rubs her back* Its okay babe. Take your time. 

Bey: And she..she um..She was like 2 years old. Chubby cheeks. your big head, your lips, everything else was me. She was so cute and precious...*wipes tears* She waved and smiled at me. Then she said "Hi mommy".....I just stared at her. Then she slowly started floating up into the sky. 

Jay: *wipes tears* Thats tough, babe. Im sorry you had to-

Bey: *stands up* This all your fault!!!

Jay: *stands up* Huh??

Bey: *hits him repeatedly* *cries* This is all your fault!! You did this!! I hate you!!! I hate you!! I hate you, Jay!! 

Jay: *bear hugs Bey* I know. Im sorry!! 

Bey: *hugs him tight*. *cries* I just want my baby baaaaack. 

Jay: Im sorry baby. I really am. 

Bey: *sniff* Whyyyyyyy?? *sniff*

Jay: I don't know. Only God knows. He does things for-

Bey: But why did he have to take our baby away??

Jay: *hugs her tight* I don't know, babe. Everything that happens is just another lesson for us to learn from. I know it hurts you. It hurts me too. I'm always here for you. No matter what. 
Bey: I know. I just want the pain to go away. 
Jay: Its going to take some time for us to get over this. But as long as we keep the love between us. We'll be okay. 
Bey: But what if I can't have any more children-
Jay: Babe, stop saying that. I'm still going marry you and be with you no matter what. *grabs her face and kisses her* 
Bey: Do you really mean that or are you saying that just to make me feel better?
Jay: Im saying it because its true. Is it making you feel better?
Bey: A little bit. *yawns* 
Jay: You wanna go lay down now?
Bey: *wipes eyes* Yeaah. I want Jayden to sleep in the bed with us. 
Jay: Aight. Come on. 


*They go get Jayden. Bey lays Jayden right up under her and Jay holds Bey from behind.*


Jay: Baby?
Bey: Hmm?
Jay: You gone be aight while I'm at work later on?
Bey: Yeahh. Im going to the studio. 
Jay: Who's watching Jayden? 
Bey: I'm bring him with me. Angie and Ty will be there with me. 
Jay: Okay. Good night. I love you. 
Bey: I love you too. 


(Next Day. 9am)


Jay: *taps Bey* Babe. 
Bey: *sleeping*
Jay: *kisses her lips*
Bey: *opens one eye* Hmm.
Jay: I'm leaving. I just wanted to tell to you.
Bey: Okay. Have a good day, babe. 
Jay: I will.. You too. *kisses her cheek* Love you. 
Bey: Love you too baby. 
Jay: *leaves* 




(11 am)
Bey: You wanna go to work with you mommy? *smiles* 
Jayden: Hnchsajdeysdb. *smiles* Mama. 
Bey: *kisses him* You're so cute. 
Jayden: Jdncssdusn.
Bey: Lets go eat something. *picks him up and goes to the kitchen* *puts him in his high chair* You wanna watch Elmo while mommy makes you some eggs?
Jayden: Uhhh hunnnnn. *smiles* 
Bey: *turns kitchen Tv on* Here you go baby boy. *winks at him* 
Jayden: *smiles big showing his four teeth* 
Bey: *giggles* Those four little teeth. *gets eggs*
Jayden: *laughs at Elmo* 
Bey: Is it that funny babe?
Jayden: *ignores Bey and keeps watching TV*
Bey: *shakes head* Just like ya daddy. *turns stove on* *cracks eggs* 
Jayden: *bangs on high chair table*
Bey: Little boy. If you don't be patient! Acting like your daddy everyday. You gotta cut that out. 
Jayden: *whines* 
Bey: Jayden! Stop acting. *starts making the eggs* You have to wait. 
Jayden: *laughs at Elmo* 
Bey: *shakes head* Spoiled. *cooks eggs* *cuts a few strawberries* Here. Greedy. *puts bowl on his high chair*
Jayden: *starts grubbing* 
Bey: Oh my Lord! *giggles* Boy, slow down. Goodness. Now you're acting like me. 
Jayden: *slows down* *watches TV while he eats* 


(Bey) 
I was just as hungry as Jayden was, so I made a bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios. I sat on the counter and ate. Watching him. This precious little gift given to me by God. I don't know where I'd be without him. He brings me the most joy. That smile, showing his four little teeth. Brightens my day no matter what. He means the world to me. I think part of the reason why I spoil him is because of the abortion. I would have two children, and one the way. Crazy now that I think about it. Would we be able to handle all of this? What would our lives be like if I would have never gotten that abortion? I would have never gotten with Justin. Jay would have never gotten arrested. Would my first unborn child be a girl or a boy? I'll never know now. The 2nd unborn child, was it a boy or girl? Never know  that either. Jay was right. Everything happens for a reason. But what were the reasons? Why did I really get an abortion? Why did I get pregnant and have a miscarriage? I guess I'll understand why later on in life. As of right? Jayden Corey Carter. The love of my life. The reason why I wake up every morning. His first birthday is just around the corner...He interrupted my thoughts.


Bey: You ready to get out?
Jayden: Uhhh huuhhnn. 
Bey: *gets off counter* *walks towards him* Can you say " Yeeesss"
Jayden: Weeessss. *smiles* 
Bey: *giggles* Yu-yu-yesssssss
Jayden: Wu-wu-weessss. 
Bey: *giggles* Close enough. *takes him out* You wanna take a bath?
Jayden: *gets excited* 
Bey: *walks towards his bedroom* You love the water like mommy?
Jayden: wu-wu-weeessss!
Bey: *laughs* Just say "yes" baby. 
Jayden: Wes. Weeeesss Wessssss. 
Bey: Mhmm baby. Work your vocal cords. *smiles* 
Jayden: *confused* Hmm?
Bey: Nothing baby. *walks in Jayden's bathroom* *puts him down* *runs water* 




(Bey And Jayden getting out of the car. At the studio) 


Bey: *getting Jayden out of his car seat* Okay, you have to walk because I can't carry you and our bags. 
Jayden: *looks up at her all sad*
Bey: Not gonna work this time, baby. *closes door*
Jayden: *pulls on Bey's pants* Up. 
Bey: *grabs his hand* Uhh uhn. Nope. Come on. *walks to the curb*
Jayden: Wesss. Up!
Bey: Jayden, mommy said no. 
Jayden: *whines*
Bey: Uggghh. Okay. *bends down and picks him up* This spoiling thing is getting outta hand. 




*Bey walks in the building and into her studio. Ty and Angie are already in there with the engineer. *

Ty: Took you long enough. 
Angie: For real. We've been here for 30 minutes. 
Bey: Well hello to y'all too..But I have a child. Who spilled juice in my car and I had to pull over and clean up the mess. 
Angie: What happen to making him walk? His daddy is gone kill you, if you keep holding him.
Ty: He is too damn big for you to be carrying all day everyday. 
Bey: *drops bags*  HIS DADDY, isn't gonna do anything. 
Ty: Right. Mhmm. 
Jayden: *sticks his tongue out at Ty*
Ty: Ooooo!! You are so BAD!! You saw that Bey?
Bey: No. See what?
Angie: He stuck his tongue out at Ty. 
Bey: *looks at Jayden* No he didn't. 
Ty: Oh but yes his lil bad ass did. 
Bey: Don't curse around him. He hears enough from his daddy. He's not bad. 
Jayden: Ass?
Angie: *crack up* 
Bey: Jayden, DON'T say that. Thanks Ty. 
Ty: Told you he was bad. 
Jayden: Ass, ass, ass, ass-
Bey: STOP! 
Jayden: Ass, ass-
Bey: *pops Jayden in the mouth* I said stop. 
Ty: *shocked*
Angie: *shocked* 
Jayden: *cries* 
Bey: I told you to stop. Next time mommy says "stop" then you stop. 
Jayden: *cries* *throws his head back* 
Bey: If daddy hears saying that word, he's gonna hit you harder. Cut it out. 
Jayden: *sniffs*
Ty: Can you believe it, Angie? Beyonce just hit Jayden.
Angie: Never thought I'd see the day. 
Bey: I only popped him in the mouth. 
Ty: Same thing. 
Bey: Anyway, I came to WORK. You ready Mark?
Mark(Engineer): Yeahh, producers sent over tones of tracks. 
Bey: Awesome. Can of y'all hold him?
Ty: I'm not holding his bad ASS!
Jayden: *looks at Bey* 
Ty: Mhmm. Say it. I dare you.
Angie: *laughs* Why are you arguing with a 1 year old?
Bey: Because he's retarded. Here Angie, take him please. He doesn't cry with you. 
Ty: Thats because she has those big tiddays. *laughs* 
Angie: *takes Jayden* Ty, shut up.
Bey: Please. *sits next to Mark* 
Ty: *flinches at Jayden* 
Jayden: *sticks tongue out* 
Angie: I worry about you, Ty. 
Mark: *plays Smash Into You instrumental* 
Bey: *listens* I love it. Keep that one. 
Mark: *plays another track*
Bey: Uhh uhn. Skip. 
Mark: *plays Disappear instrumental track* 
Bey: *listens* I love this. *grabs notepad from bag* *walks in booth* Play that one again. 
Mark: *plays Disappear* 
Bey: *sings disappear lyrics* 


*Ty and Angie were paying close attention* 


Bey: That needs a little editing.
Mark: Woah. You don't need ANY editing AT ALL. That was GREAT. 
Bey: *blushes* Thank You. *sits* Can you save that please?
Mark: Yeah, *saves it* 
Bey: *plays the next track* *Listens* Too much going on* Next. *plays Halo* *gets lost in the track* This is amazing. Mixture of hip hip and R&B. I loooooove the drums. *plays it again* 
Bey: *plays Singles Ladies* Heeeeey *claps her hands* 

Ty: Heeeey! *claps hands*

Angie: Keep this one Bey. *claps hands*

Jayden: *dances in Angie's lap* 

Angie: *laughs* Bey, look at your child. 

Bey: *turns around* *laughs* You like this song, baby?

Jayden: *dances* Wessss!! *claps his hands off beat* 

Ty: Lord! He dances like his daddy. *laughs* 

Bey: Leave him alone. *laughs* 

Angie: This song makes you feel like you're in church. *stomps foot and claps* 

Bey: Its does huh? *smiles* Keep this one too. 

*Bey's phone rings*

Ty: Your phone is ringing is Bey?

Bey: See who is it please? 

Ty: *looks at Bey's phone* Its ya baby's daddy.

Bey: Toss it to me.

Ty: *toss phone to her* 

Bey: *pauses track* Hello. 

Jay: Wassup baby. What are you doing?

Bey: In the studio. What about you?

Jay: Just got out of a meeting. I have another one in like 15 minutes. I just wanted to hear your angelic voice. Sooths me.

Bey: *smiles big* *blushes* *giggles*

Jay: *chuckles* Yeaah. I still got it. 

Bey: Shut up. *giggles* Hold on. I'll be right back you guys. *leaves*

Jay: Hows my lil man doing? 

Bey: He's fine. Besides him saying "ass".

Jay: He didn't say that. For real?

Bey: For real. I told him not say it. Then he kept saying. With a smile on his face. Then I popped him in the mouth.

Jay: Whaaaaaat? You popped em?

Bey: Shut up. You sound like Ty and Angie. 

Jay: Im just saying. I never thought you'd hit him. You spoil him so much.

Bey: I made him walk for like 10 seconds.

Jay: Doesn't count.

Bey: *laughs* Why doesn't it count?

Jay: 10 seconds? Not long enough. 

Bey: He started whining, so I just picked him up.

Jay: Bey, you really gotta stop that.

Bey: What happen to "my kid will get whatever he or she wants"?

Jay: I meant material things, babe. 

Bey: I know. I just don't want him to cry. 

Jay: Well he's gonna be crying a lot more from now.

Bey: No he isn't-

Jay: Aye babe. I gotta get to this meeting. Can you and Jayden meet at the pizza palace at 5:00?

Bey: Uhhh. Yeaah.

Jay: You sure?

Bey: Yeah I'm sure. I just didn't expect you to say Jayden.

Jay: Well he loves pizza so. 

Bey: Yeah..well I'll let you get back to work..

Jay: Aight baby. I'll see y'all later. Love you. 

Bey: Love you too. *they hang up* *walks in the studio* 

Angie: Jay is the MAN. He can make you smile over the phone. After y'all hang up.

Bey: *giggles* Shut up...Jayden, you want your coloring book?

Jayden: *gets excited* Wes!! 

Bey: *grabs blanket from his bag and lays it down. Grabs crayons and coloring book. *sits him down* Color in the BOOK. Thats it. Okay?

Jayden: Ooooootay. *starts scribbling* 

*Bey gets back to the music. Writes a few songs. Mark took an hour break, he left to go wherever* 

Jayden: *sits on Bey's lap* Hungee.

Bey: You are talkative today. 

Ty: He's suppose to talk, Beyonce. Not be mute.

Angie: *laughs* 

Bey: Im saying that usually doesn't talk this much. He just makes sounds and points. But I'm glad he's using his words. *grabs lunchable from the diaper bag and opens it*

Jayden: *tries to get the candy* 

Bey: *takes candy* 

Angie: Dang. He can't have candy?

Bey: He has 4 teeth. Well two more are coming in. His dad doesn't want him to have to many sweets. *gives him the meat * Here babe. 

Jayden: *grabs it and eat*

Angie: Thats why y'all put water in his juice? 

Bey: Yeah. Too much sugar.

Ty: Eww...He doesn't like the cheese or the crackers?

Bey: Yeah. He just eats it separately. *shrugs* 

Jayden: *grabs cheese* 

Angie: Bey?

Bey: Huh? 

Angie: That song you recorded. What was it about? 

Ty: Yeah. Its was deep, yet I was so confused.

Bey: *sighs* I was hopping y'all wouldn't ask me that.

Angie: Why? 

Bey: Because its very personal. Very emotional.

Ty: We can see. We heard it in your voice.

Jayden: *grabs cracker and licks the salt off*

Angie: It seemed like you were ready to cry or something.

Bey: Can you guys keep a secret?

Ty: You know I can. Can't speak for Angie.

Angie: I can hold water. Im not Kelly boo!

Bey: Anyway...The song.....The song is about....my unborn baby.

Ty: Your unborn baby? You mean when you got the..you know-

Angie: Ty, shut up! 

Bey: When I got the what?

Ty: You gone make me say it?

Angie: You aren't suppose to say anything.

Bey: Don't tell me you guys know about my ab-

Angie: Yeah we know.

Ty: Angie told me.

Bey: Who told you Angie? No one but-

Angie: Solange was ease dropping. 

Bey: Big mouth.

Angie: You mad at me?

Bey: No, it was some time ago...Does anyone else know?

Angie: Just us.

Bey: Well,...Thats not who the song is about.

Ty: Huh? Im confused.

Bey: I have two unborn babies.

Ty: You had two abortions??

Bey: ...No. I had a miscarriage..

Angie: *gasps* Ohhh Beeeeey. Im sorry.

Bey: Don't be. *fight back tears* 

Ty: When?

Bey: The car accident. 

Angie: Ohh myy gosshhh. *tries not to cry*

Bey: Angie, don't cry. If you imma cry. 

Angie: Okay..*fans eyes*

Ty: *rubs Bey's arm* You are so strong. 

Bey: I have no choice. I look at him and he makes me forget about it. 

Ty: Because he's bad. 

Jayden: *sticks his tongue at Ty*

Ty: See. 

Bey: Jayden, thats not nice. Can you say "sorry"?
Jayden: No.

Angie: Oop.

Bey: Do want me to call daddy?

Jayden: Sowwy. Sowwy. Sowwy. 

Angie: Oh my Lord. 

Ty: Mhmm. 

Bey: Those are the magic words. Works EVERY time. 

Ty: I bet. Jay's big scary mean lookin ass. 

Angie: Hell! I'd said sorry if he was my daddy. *giggles* 

Bey: Don't talk about my baby!

Angie: *sighs* *rolls eyes* Here you go. 

Bey: Anyway! You can't tell a soul what I just told you. Not even God.

Angie: .....But God already knows

Bey: You know what the hell I mean.

Jayden: *tries to grab his zippy cup*

Bey: *gives him zippy cup* Don't tell anyone..

Angie & Ty: Okay.

Jayden: *lays head on Bey's lap and drinks juice* *rubs eyes* 

Bey: You're sleepy babe?

Jayden: *sleepy voice* No. *rubs eyes*

*Bey, Ty, and Angie talk for 10 minutes* 

Jayden: *sleeping*

Bey: Look at mommy's baby. *kisses his forehead* So peaceful. *plays in his hair* 

Ty: And when he's awake, he's a terrorist!

Bey: Stop. *giggles* *takes Jayden's shoes off* Can one y'all lay that blanket in the couch? 

Angie: *lays blanket down* 

Bey: Thank you. *lays Jayden down* 

*Bey continues to work. Listening to tracks, and writing. She and Jayden left to the studio at 5:00 and made it to the pizza parlor at 5:30.* 

Bey: Hey babe. *hugs him*

Jay: *picks Jayden up* Look at you making him walk. 

Bey: Because he's getting heavy. *giggles* *sits* 

Jay: *sits with Jayden in his lap* How did the studio go?

Bey: Good. I record that song that you read. Ty and Angie asked me what it was about. *grabs a slice of pizza*

Jay: Did he eat? And what happen?

Bey: He did, but give him a piece of pizza.

Jay: *gives Jayden a piece of pizza* Can you hold it man?

Jayden: Weeeess! *grabs pizza* *eats*

Jay: So what happen?

Bey: I told them what it was about. 

Jay: What did you say?

Bey: I just said that it was about my unborn baby. They thought it was about the first-

Jay: How-

Bey: Solange was ease dropping the day I was talking to my parents and told them. 

Jay: Ohh. 

Bey: Then I told them about the second. Angie almost cried but I told her not to.

Jay: Tough subject. How do you feel?

Bey: I felt a little better when I was watching Jayden eat this morning. Still a sore subject. Its gonna take some time though. What about you?

Jay: It hurts but you know. *eats*

Bey: Hmm. *eats* Jay?

Jay: Yeah?

Bey: You know that I really am sorry for not keeping our first child. I-

Jay: Bey, don't worry about it-

Bey: Don't do that. I hate when you act like stuff doesn't bother you...Did you really hate me?

Jay: Why do you wanna bring up the past? I thought we were passed that?

Bey: I just want to know. Did you?

Jay: I did. But you have to love someone in order to hate them. That's why I'm sitting across from you right now. 

Bey: *nods* 

Jay: Let me ask you something. 

Bey: *eats* Go ahead. 

Jay: What was the real reason why?

Bey: *looks away* *looks at Jay* Jay, I was scared. I wasn't ready. 

Jay: I wish you would've told me. We could have made a decision together. But two kids would have been crazy. 

Bey: ....Three kids.

Jay: Crazy saying that out loud huh?

Bey: Yeah, a little bit. 

Jay: Three kids. Wow. 

Bey: One day. *smiles* 

Jay: Maybe sooner than you think. *wink* 

Bey: Not if I start taking birth control again. 

Jayden: *grabs Jays pizza and eats*

Bey: *laughs* 

Jay: So you just gone take daddy's pizza? *chuckles* Greedy like yo mama.

Bey: No! He's greedy like his DADDY! *laughs* 

Jay: Yeah whatever. *chuckles* 

Jayden: *trying to grab Jay's soda* 

Bey: Give him some.

Jay: He doesn't need soda. He can have some water.

Bey: Boriiiiinnnggg! *giggles*

Jay: *gives Jayden water*

Jayden: *shakes his head no* 

Bey: See. We don't like water.

Jay: Guess he'll be thirsty then. 
Bey: Babe, just give him a little taste. 
Jay: *gives Jayden some soda* 
Jayden: *drinks a lot* 
Jay: Alright alright alright! *chuckles* Greedy and thirsty. 
Bey: Jayden, can you say "mooommyy"?
Jayden: ......MooooommmME!! *smiles*
Bey: *smiles* *claps* Yaaaayy!!
Jay: Ard. Ard. Ard.
Bey: Hating is never cute, babe. *winks* 
Jay: Can you say "daddy", lil man?
Jayden: ...No. *smiles*
Bey: *laughs* Access DENIED!
Jayden: DaaaddddDE! 
Jay: Yeaaahhh!
Bey: Aaaaah. No one curr! *laughs*

*10 minutes later* 


Jay: I really think that you should tell your parents.
Bey: And I really think that you should stop nagging me about it. Looks like it won't happen. 
Jay: Bey-


*Bey's phone rings*


Bey: *looks for phone* Hello.
Mama Tina: Beyonce why didn't you tell me that you had a miscarriage. 

To Be Continued...